The House of Defence v. 1Benson, E. F. (Edward Frederic)
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The House of Defence v. 1
Benson, E. F. (Edward Frederic)
Christian Science -- Fiction; England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Spiritual healing -- Fiction
Yet though he had but claimed, tacitly, but by a right that she could
not dispute, the privilege of friendship, she knew that he implied much
more. She knew quite well that he still loved her. There was no question
about it in her mind, and it disquieted her. But the love of other men
had not disturbed the serenity of her own _insouciance_, and the fact
that this man did told her that he was not as others.
It was characteristic of her and of the worldly wisdom with which she
always ordered her life that she crammed into the week that followed her
ball engagements which would ordinarily have taken even her ten days to
get through. She had seen at once that a question of some importance
would some time have to be answered, and having made up her mind what
her answer would be, she also made it impossible for herself, as far as
was in her power, to leave herself leisure for reconsidering it. She
had, as has been said, no real moral code to refer it to. She had been
born, as we must suppose many people are, without a moral sense, and her
upbringing and environment had not generated it. She did not, for
instance, refrain from stealing owing to the wickedness of so doing, but
merely because it was mean and nasty, like going about with dirty
gloves. And as regards other points, no sense of morality dictated her
decision now. To put it baldly and blankly, as she did to herself, here
was a man who had loved her twelve years ago, and, she felt certain,
still loved her; while she, on her side, was stirred again as she was
stirred twelve years ago. Only now she was Thurso's wife.
Worldly wisdom, however, said much more than this to her. Her first
impulse to treat him with formality was clearly mistaken. If she did not
treat him with the friendliness that was so undoubtedly his due, the
world would certainly say that she was cold to him in public only to be
warm in private; and from the point of view of the world, the
conclusion, though actually false, would surely be accredited.
Obviously, the proper attitude, since he desired to be treated as a
friend, was to do so. It was here that Thurso's presence in London was
desirable. The whole affair was delicate, and if he was somewhere in
Caithness, where there might be typhoid or there might not, it gave the
gossips far more excuse for raging furiously together. There was no
doubt that she would see a good deal of Rudolf Villars during this month
or two of London; her husband should, therefore, see a good deal of him
too.
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