“Poor old Nick!” he said. “It’s damned rough on him. Latimer ought to be
carefully and quickly chloroformed out of the way. He’s as much a menace
to society as a mad dog.”
Jean sighed.
“I’m afraid they’re very unhappy--Nick and Claire.”
“I wonder Claire doesn’t chuck her husband,” said Blaise. “And take
whatever of happiness she can get out of the world.”
Jean shook her head.
“You know you don’t mean that. You don’t really believe in snatching
happiness--at all costs.”
“I’d let precious little stand in the way. If I were Nick I think I
should do it.”
“But being you?”
Jean did not know what unaccountable impulse induced her to give a
personal and individual twist to what had been developing almost into an
academic discussion. Perhaps it was the familiar, unsatisfied longing to
hear Blaise himself define the thing which kept them apart--even though,
since Lady Anne’s disclosure, she could guess only too well what it
was. Or perhaps it was the faint, tormenting hope that one day his
determination would weaken and his love sweep away all barriers.
He looked at her contemplatively.
“Sometimes the past makes claims upon a man which forbid him to snatch
at happiness. I don’t believe in any man’s shirking his just punishment
for the evil he has done. What he has brought on himself, that he must
bear. But Nick and Claire have had no part in bringing about their own
tragedy. They are just the sport of chance--of an ill fate. They are
morally free to take their happiness in a way in which I shall never be
free to take mine, as long as I live.” He regarded her steadily. “There
are certain things for which I have proved myself unfitted--with
which it is evident I am not to be trusted. And one of those is the
safeguarding of any woman’s happiness.”
Jean felt her throat contract. It would always be the same, then! The
long tentacles of the past would reach out eternally into the future.
The woman who had been his wife--the woman who had destroyed herself,
and, in so doing, hanged a millstone of remorse about his neck--would
stand forever at the gateway of the garden of happiness, her dead lips
silently denying him--and, with him, the woman who loved him--the right
to enter.
With an effort Jean answered that part of his speech which had reference
only to Claire and Nick.
“There are other ways, though, in which they have no moral right. I
grant that Claire was persuaded, almost driven into marrying Sir Adrian
by her parents, but, after all, we each have our individual free will.
She _could_ have refused to obey them. Or, if she felt there were
reasons why she must marry him--the material advantage to her parents,
and so on, why, she ought to have reckoned the cost I don’t mean to be
hard, Blaise---------” She broke off wistfully.
“You--hard!” He laughed a little, as though amused.
“Only--only one must try to be fair all round--to look at things
_straight_.”
She leaned her chin on her palm and her eyes grew thoughtful.
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