“Why didn’t you come then, Geoffrey? I sometimes wondered--you being
you!”--with a faint smile. “Because, of course, I knew why you had
rushed off to France. Madame de Varigny explained that.”
A dull flush mounted to his face.
“Did she? I expect she told you merely what was the truth. I went to see
her because she had assured me that she could stop your marriage with
Tormarin--could interfere in some way to prevent it. That was why I went
to France.... But when she told me her blackguardly scheme--how she
had planned and plotted to conceal the fact that Tormarin’s wife was
alive--_and why_ she had done it, I would have no hand in anything that
followed. I’m no saint”--a brief, ironical smile flitted across his
face--“but there are some methods at which even I draw the line.”
“So--that was why you stayed away?”
“That was why. I wanted you, Jean--God only knows how I wanted you!--but
I couldn’t try to force your hand at such a time. I couldn’t profit by a
damnable scheme like that.”
Jean’s eyes grew soft as she realised that beneath all the impetuous
arrogance and dominant demands of the man’s temperament there yet lay
something fine and clean and straight--difficult to get at, perhaps, but
which could yet rise, in answer to a sense of honour and fairness with
which she had not credited him, and take command of his whole nature.
“I’m glad--glad you didn’t come, Geoffrey,” she said gently. “Glad
you--couldn’t.”
“I don’t know that I’m glad about it,” he returned with a grim candour.
“I simply couldn’t do it, and that’s all there is to it. But I’ve come
now, Jean. I’ve come because I want you to give me just the right
to look after you. I’m not asking for anything. I only want to serve
you--if you’ll let me--just to be near you. If Tormarin were free, I
would not have come to you again. I know I should have no chance. But
he’s not free. Does that give me a chance, Jean? If it doesn’t, I’ll
take myself off--I’ll never bother you again. I’ll try Africa--big game
shooting”--with a short laugh. “But if it does----”
He paused and waited for her answer. The intensity of longing in his
eyes was the sole indication of the emotion that stirred within him--an
emotion held in check by a stern self-control that seemed to Jean to be
part of this new, changed lover of hers. Surely, in the months which had
elapsed since she had fled from him on Dartmoor, he had fought with his
devils and cast them out!
She held out her hands to him.
“Geoffrey, I’m so sorry--but I’m afraid it doesn’t. I wish--I wish I
could give you any other answer. But, you see, it isn’t marrying--it’s
love that matters. And all my love is given.”
He took her hands in his and held them gently with that strange, new
restraint he seemed to have learned.
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