The house of the dead : $b or, Prison life in SiberiaDostoyevsky, Fyodor
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The house of the dead : $b or, Prison life in Siberia
Dostoyevsky, Fyodor
Exiles -- Fiction; Siberia (Russia) -- Fiction
A type of murderers that one often meets with is the following: A man
lives calmly and peacefully. His fate is a hard one, but he puts up with
it. He is a peasant attached to the soil, a domestic serf, a shopkeeper,
or a soldier. Suddenly he finds something give way within him; what he
has hitherto suffered he can bear no longer, and he plunges his knife
into the breast of his oppressor or his enemy. He then goes beyond all
measure. He has killed his oppressor, his enemy. That can be
understood--there was cause for that crime; but afterwards he does not
assassinate his enemies alone, but the first person he happens to meet
he kills for the pleasure of killing--for an abusive word, for a look,
to make an equal number, or only because some one is standing in his
way. He behaves like a drunken man--a man in a delirium. When once he
has passed the fatal line, he is himself astonished to find that nothing
sacred exists for him. He breaks through all laws, defies all powers,
and gives himself boundless license. He enjoys the agitation of his own
heart and the terror that he inspires. He knows all the same that a
frightful punishment awaits him. His sensations are probably like those
of a man who, looking down from a high tower on to the abyss yawning at
his feet, would be happy to throw himself head first into it in order to
bring everything to an end. That is what happens with even the most
quiet, the most commonplace individuals. There are some even who give
themselves airs in this extremity. The more they were quiet,
self-effacing before, the more they now swagger and seek to inspire
fear. The desperate men enjoy the horror they cause; they take pleasure
in the disgust they excite; they perform acts of madness from despair,
and care nothing how it must all end, or seem impatient that it should
end as soon as possible. The most curious thing is that their
excitement, their exaltation, will last until the pillory. After that
the thread is cut, the moment is fatal, and the man becomes suddenly
calm, or, rather, he becomes extinct, a thing without feeling. In the
pillory all his strength fails him, and he begs pardon of the people.
Once at the convict prison, he is quite different. No one would ever
imagine that this white-livered chicken had killed five or six men.
There are some men whom the convict prison does not easily subdue. They
preserve a certain swagger, a spirit of bravado.
“I say, I am not what you take me for; I have sent six fellows out of
the world,” you will hear them boast; but sooner or later they have all
to submit. From time to time, the murderer will amuse himself by
recalling his audacity, his lawlessness when he was in a state of
despair. He likes at these moments to have some silly fellow before whom
he can brag, and to whom he will relate his heroic deeds, by pretending
not to have the least wish to astonish him. “That is the sort of man I
am,” he says.
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