And then comes the fear of making oneself ridiculous, and all the tame
considerations that hamper every pure and fresh impulse. And all this,
dear Fraulein, you and I have experienced. Our souls have met and
recognised each other. This is a mighty fact, which you felt as well as
I three days ago as your carriage crossed the Kurfürsten Bridge. If we
were to meet now in society, the ordinary conventional preliminaries of
getting acquainted would take away our naïve impression, we should be
bereft of that elemental undeviating conviction which constituted the
mysterious charm of our meeting. Let us then remain strangers to each
other outwardly, trusting only to these first glowing intuitions.
Let us exchange a few letters, freely and without a thought to
conventionality. Their contents shall bind us to nothing in real life,
and should we meet by some strange accident, they shall be but a memory.
Do not, I beg of you, listen to the faint-hearted criticism of reason,
but follow the first hearty impulse of your soul. It will lead you
aright.
With warm sympathy,
THE UNKNOWN OF THE KURFÜRSTEN BRIDGE.
III.
DEAR SIR,--I have decided to answer your interesting letter. Frau
von B. is to read all letters that pass between us, so that I can
enter upon this correspondence with a happy sense of freedom from
responsibility.
I am weary of the dryness of ordinary intercourse, and there is nothing
I should like better than to talk to a man for once without reserve. I
drop my worsted-work as the prisoner drops his chains, and dip my pen
into the ink with the thrilling rapture of dawning freedom.
Do you know what it is to do worsted-work? Have you ever thought about
this last reminiscence of mediæval times, this glaring anachronism in a
time of steam and electricity and enlightenment?...
Liberty flows and surges about us, and life brings forth thousands of
rich blossoms, and we sit imprisoned and--do worsted-work, or drum on
the piano, murdering Chopin, or if we are very clever, sing Schumann’s
songs with the pathos of dilettantism.
When I met you on the Kurfürsten Bridge, Frau von B. and I were just
coming home from a ladies’ party, to which all the guests had brought
their worsted-work. I had really suffered under the unendurable
weight of conversation on topics of the utmost indifference, under a
hypocritical interest in things which cannot possibly interest anybody.
My heart was full of bitterness, and on the way home I was considering
the question whether such a life was worth living, whether it would not
be wiser to run away, to adopt the garb of a man, and try one’s powers
boldly in the stream of life.
At that moment I saw you, and I felt all that you speak of in your
letter. In that short second in which our eyes met, pictures clearly
defined and wondrously bright arose before me.
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