"That's well; that's better than I expected. Come, boy, I don't want to
preach to you; I am something of a blundering old sinner myself--I'm
the last person to preach to any one. But I know something of what life
is, and I've learned the best way to get through it. I suppose you'll
be bound to meet her sometimes; that's the sort of devilish game Fate
plays with us. The things we most want to see are kept out of our
sight, and those we would be glad to avoid are thrust under our very
noses. But don't see her more than you can help, and try to think--it's
a bit hard to do so, I admit--but try to think that the world holds
something else than one woman, and something better than dreams and
regrets. Face it, boy. Move about and see people and interest yourself
in other matters. I won't do you the injustice to say that you will be
able to forget; I'm afraid you won't do that. But at least you'll grow
to look at the matter in a different way, and to think it wasn't so bad
after all; I'm quite sure you will."
They paced up and down the room together for a little time longer,
Miss Carlaw occasionally drawing his hand up to her lips or against
her cheek, and sometimes softly crooning a few bars of an old song, as
though to a child in pain or trouble. Presently, quite briskly, she
took him by the shoulders, and drew his head down that she might kiss
him, and felt her way out of the room. And, after a time, he crept to
bed and slept more soundly than he had hoped to do.
A couple of days after that he went down to see the captain. It was his
first visit since the night of 'Linda's flight, and he almost feared
on his journey down that the captain might refer to the matter in some
way and tear wider the old wound. But he might have known the little
gentleman better, for no word was said on the subject during the whole
of his stay, which lasted some days. With a melancholy desire, however
to reopen the wound himself, Comethup let his feet stray one night,
soon after his arrival in the old town, toward the neglected garden of
the house in which she had lived--it seemed so much easier to think
there, even to think calmly, than in any other place.
There seemed always to be dead and drifting leaves in that garden, at
whatever time of the year; a different atmosphere was there from that
found anywhere else. He walked all round the house, lingering among the
trees, as he had lingered when a boy, almost thinking he saw sometimes
the flutter of her childish frock going on before him. The place seemed
deserted; not a light gleamed from any window.
At last he became conscious that there really was some one moving
before him in the garden, flitting about among the trees, gliding into
shadows, and keeping as much as possible out of sight. The place had
seemed ghostly enough before, but now a little chill fear crept into
his heart and stopped his feet; immediately the movement among the
trees ceased also.
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