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It was characteristic of him that he lit a big fire and carried his
bedding out and spread it in the growing glow and warmth. "I'm not going
to risk a cold in the head at this crisis of my affairs," he told
himself, "even if she doesn't care--and Heaven knows how she can! I
needn't make myself a ridiculous and disgusting object in her eyes."
To the same end he set the kettle on the fire and made hot coffee for
himself. When, at last, he turned into well-aired sheets he found that
he could not sleep.
"Confound the coffee!" he said, and tried to attribute to that brown
exotic elixir the desperate sense of futility and emptiness which
possessed him. His mind assured him that there was nothing the matter
with him but coffee; but his heart said: "You won't see her in the
morning. You won't spend the day with her to-morrow, nor the next day,
nor the next." And his heart cursed the mock marriage and all the
reservations and abstentions that it demanded. "If she had been really
my wife--" If she had been really his wife he would have called three
times a day to know how things were with her. He would have seen her,
held her hands, felt again the confiding droop of her head on his
shoulder. But as it was-- She had consented to the mock marriage, he
knew, because she did not desire to give him any rights, not even the
right to ring at her aunt's front door and ask for Mrs. Basingstoke.
He fell asleep at last, and dreamed that they had taken an unfurnished
flat in a neolithic cave and that he had killed a bear and was dragging
it home to show her. The bear seemed to be not quite dead, for it was
growling, and its weight on his back awoke him, to find that Charles had
thought his master's shoulders a convenient site for slumber. He
sleepily had it out with Charles, and when he slept again he dreamed
that he and she had decided to live in a captive balloon. She was
already installed, but he could find no ladder long enough to reach her.
She was laughing down at him and showering pink rose-leaves on his
up-turned face when he woke to find Charles conscientiously licking his
ears. This time he found energy to get up and put a closed door between
himself and Charles, and then he dreamed that he had arranged to meet
her under the clock at Charing Cross Station, and that the Government
had just decided to establish uniformity in railway stations, and had
called every station Charing Cross, and had, moreover, furnished each
station with six hundred and sixty-six clocks, which all ticked louder
than Big Ben. He awoke, and it was morning, and there were no clocks
ticking, but from beyond the door came the measured thump-thump-thump of
Charles's tail on the floor of the sitting-room. So all night he had
dreamed of her, yet never once seen her.
"If I believed in omens--" he said, and rang, to make known his return
to the people of the house.
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