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The points of her white shoes showed like stars among the filth of the
pavement, her clean, clear beauty shining against the drab and dirty
houses like a lily against a dust-heap. He felt a surge of impotent fury
that such a background should be possible. The children, tired and pale
with the summer heat that had been so glad and gay and shining to him
and to her yesterday on the quiet river, looked like some sort of living
fungus--and their clothes looked like decaying vegetables. If Mr.
Basingstoke had been alone he would have solaced himself by going to the
nearest baker's and buying buns for every child in sight. But somehow it
is very difficult to do that sort of thing unless you are alone or have
a companion who trusts you and whom you trust beyond the limit of life's
cheaper confidences. He felt that self-exculpatory eagerness to give
which certain natures experience in the presence of sufferings which
they do not share. Also he felt--and hated himself for feeling--a fear
lest, if he should act naturally, she might think he wanted to "show
off." To show off what, in the name of all that was pretentious and
insincere? Had civilization come to this, that a man was "showing off"
who took want as he found it and changed it, without its costing him the
least little loss or self-denial, into a radiant, if momentary,
satisfaction? And yet, somehow, he found he could not say, "Let's go and
raid the bun-shop for these kiddies."
"We're to pass our lives together, and I can't say a simple thing like
that," he thought, with curious bitterness--but, indeed, all his
thoughts were confused and bitter just then.
What a travesty of a wedding-day! He would have liked his wedding-feast
to be in the big barn of the bride's father, and every neighbor, rich
and poor, to have drunk their health in home-brewed ale of the best, and
the tables cleared away and a jolly dance to follow, and when the fun
was at its merriest he and she would have slipped out and ridden home to
his own house on the white horse--Dobbin, his name--she on the pillion
behind him, her arm soft about his waist, and the good horse so sure of
foot that he never stumbled, however often his master turned his face
back to the dear face over his shoulder. Instead of which she had
consented to a mock marriage in a registry-office--and this.
"Let's get out of this," he repeated.
"We are getting out of it," she said, and, abruptly, "Don't people who
have real weddings pay the ringers and the beadle and give a feast to
the villagers--open house, and all that?"
He thrilled to the magic of that apt capping of his thought.
"Yes," he said, and, not knowing why, hung on her next words.
"Couldn't we?" she said, and her eyes wandered to the rose he still
carried. "Of course it was only pretending, but we might pretend a
little longer. Couldn't we give our wedding-feast here? The guests are
all ready," she added, and her voice trembled a little.
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