The Indian Lily and Other StoriesSudermann, Hermann
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The Indian Lily and Other Stories
Sudermann, Hermann
Short stories, German -- Translations into English; Sudermann, Hermann, 1857-1928 -- Translations into English
And he had a good word to say for me--_he?_
His voice went on. "To-day that he is out of our way we may as well
confess that we always liked him a great deal. He took life and work
seriously and never used an indecent weapon against us. And if the
tactics of war had not forced us to represent his excellences as
faults, we might have learned a good deal from him."
"It's a great pity," said the other. "If, before everything was at
sixes and sevens, he could have been persuaded to adopt our views, we
could perhaps have had the pleasure of receiving him into our
fighting lines."
"With open arms," was the answer. And then in solemn tone:
"Peace be to his ashes."
The other echoed: "Peace ..."
And then they went on....
I hid my face in my hands. My breast seemed to expand and gently, very
gently something began to beat in it which had rested in silent
numbness since I lay down here.
"So that is the nature of the world's judgment," I said to myself. "I
should have known that before. With head proudly erect I would have
gone my way, uninfluenced by the glitter of false affection as by the
blindness of wildly aiming hatred. I would have shaken praise and
blame from me with the same joyous laugh and sought the norm of
achievement in myself alone. Oh, if only I could live once more! If
only there were a way out of these accursed six boards!"
In impotent rage I pounded the coffin top with my fist and only
succeeded in running a splinter into my finger.
And then there came over me once more, even though it came
hesitatingly and against my will, a delightful consciousness of that
eternal peace into which I had entered.
"Would it be worth the trouble after all," I said to myself, "to
return to the fray once more, even if I were a thousand times certain
of victory? What is this victory worth? Even if I succeed in being the
first to mount some height untrod hitherto by any human foot, yet the
next generation will climb on my shoulders and hurl me down into the
abysm of oblivion. There I could lie, lonely and helpless, until the
six boards are needed again to help me to my happiness. And so let me
be content and wait until that thing in my breast which has began to
beat so impudently, has become quiet once more."
I stretched myself out, folded my hands, and determined to hold no
more incendiary speeches and thus counteract the trade of the worms,
but rather to doze quietly into the All.
Thus I lay again for a space.
Then arose somewhere a strange musical sound, which penetrated my
dreamy state but partially at first before it awakened me wholly from
my slumber.
What was that? A signal of the last day?
"It's all the same to me," I said and stretched myself. "Whether it's
heaven or hell--it will be a new experience."
But the sound that had awakened me had nothing in common with the
metallic blare of trumpets which religious guides have taught us
to expect.
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