The Indian Lily and Other StoriesSudermann, Hermann
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The Indian Lily and Other Stories
Sudermann, Hermann
Short stories, German -- Translations into English; Sudermann, Hermann, 1857-1928 -- Translations into English
"She didn't say anything definite. I was to make her excuses. She
intended to return home by evening, at all events."
He nodded and the girl went with a sigh of relief, gently closing the
door behind her.
He continued to whistle, and looked up at a hanging lamp, which
defined itself against the window niche by means of a wreath of gay
artificial flowers.
In this hanging lamp, which hung there unnoticed and unreachable from
the floor, he had, a year ago, quite by accident, discovered a store
of love letters. His mistress had concealed them there since she
evidently did not even consider the secret drawer of her desk a
sufficiently safe repository.
He had carefully kept the secret of the lamp to himself, and had only
fed his grim humour from time to time by observing the changes of her
heart by means of added missives. In this way he had been able to
observe the number of his excellent friends with whom she
deceived him.
Thus his contempt for mankind assumed monstrous proportions, but this
contempt was the one emotional luxury which his egoism was still
capable of.
He grasped a chair and seemed, for a moment about to mount to the lamp
to inspect her latest history. But he let his hand fall. After all, it
was indifferent with whom she was unfaithful to-day....
And he was tired. A bad day's work lay behind him. A three-year-old
full-blooded horse, recently imported from Hull, had proven itself
abnormally sensitive and had brought him to the verge of despair by
its fearfulness and its moods. He had exercised it for hours, and had
only succeeded in making the animal more nervous than before. Great
sums were at stake if the fault should prove constitutional and
not curable.
He felt the impulse to share his worries with some one, but he knew of
no one. From the point of view of Miss Ludi's naive selfishness, it
was simply his duty to be successful. She didn't care for the
troublesome details. At his club, again, each one was warily guarding
his own interests. Hence it was necessary there to speak carefully,
since an inadvertent expression might affect general opinion.
He almost felt impelled to call in the maid and speak to her of his
worries.
Then his own softness annoyed him.
It was his wont to pass through life in lordly isolation and to
astonish the world by his successes. That was all he needed.
Yawning he stretched himself out on the _chaise longue_. Time dragged.
Three hours would pass until Ludi's probable return. He was so
accustomed to the woman's society that he almost longed for her. Her
idle chatter helped him. Her little tricks refreshed him. But the most
important point was this: she was no trouble. He could caress her or
beat her, call to her and drive her from him like a little dog. He
could let her feel the full measure of his contempt, and she would not
move a muscle. She was used to nothing else.
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