The Infidel; or, the Fall of Mexico. Vol. I.Bird, Robert Montgomery
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The Infidel; or, the Fall of Mexico. Vol. I.
Bird, Robert Montgomery
Mexico -- History -- Conquest, 1519-1540 -- Fiction
Foiled thus in every attempt to exchange thoughts with a fellow-being,
and reduced to commune only with his own, the unhappy prisoner ceased,
at last, to make any effort; and, yielding gradually to a despair that
was not the less consuming for being entirely without complaint, he
began, in the end, to be indifferent even to the coming and presence of
his jailer, neither rising to meet him, nor even lifting his eyes from
the floor, on which they were fixed with a lethargic dejection.
He became also indifferent to his food; and once, when Najara entered,
he perceived that the water-jar, the dish of _tortillas_, or
maize-cakes, the savoury wild-fowl, and the fragrant _chocolatl_, (for
in regard to food, he was liberally supplied,) stood upon the little
table, where they had been placed the day before, untasted and even
untouched. He cast his eyes upon the youth, and, for the first time,
began to feel a sentiment of pity for his condition. Indeed, the noble
figure of the young man was beginning to waste away; his cheeks were
hollow, his neglected beard was springing uncouthly over his lips, and
his sunken eyes drooped upon the earth, as if never more to gleam with
the light of hope and pleasure. The hunchback hesitated for a moment,
and then growled out a few words,--the first he had uttered for a week.
But these, though commiseration prompted them, he succeeded in making
expressive only of scorn or anger.
"Hark you, senor Juan Lerma," he said, "do you mean to starve?"
At the sound of his voice, so unusual and so unexpected, the young man
raised his eyes, but with a vague, wo-begone look, and answered nothing.
"I say, senor," continued Najara, somewhat more blandly, "is it your
will to die by starvation rather than in any other way?"
"Ah, Najara! is it thou?" said Juan, rising feebly, or indolently, to
his feet. "Heaven give you a good-morrow."
"Pshaw!" returned the jailer, gruffly; "pray me no such prayers: keep
them for yourself. I ask you, if it be your purpose to starve yourself
to death, out of a mere unsoldierly fear of hanging?"
"Thou hast not said so much to me, I know not when," replied the youth,
not with any intention of shuffling off the question, but speaking of
what was uppermost in his mind. His voice was very mild, and Najara, by
no means without his weaker points, felt it as a reproach.
"I care not," he replied, "if I answer you any two or three questions,
that may be nearest to your heart. But first give me to know, wherefore
you have eaten nothing? Are you sick?"
"Surely I am, at heart; but, bodily, I am well."
"And you are not resolute to die of hunger, before the
judgment-day?--Pho, if you have that spirit, perhaps it were better. But
it is a death of great torment.--Yet, why should one be afraid of the
shame? 'Tis nothing, when we are dead."
"Is this thy fear then?" said Juan, patiently. "It is not permitted us
to commit suicide in any form. I will eat, to satisfy thee; but food is
bitter in prison."
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