The Inside of the Cup — CompleteChurchill, Winston
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The Inside of the Cup — Complete
Churchill, Winston
Attitude change -- Fiction; Christian ethics -- Fiction; Christian life -- Fiction; Conscience -- Religious aspects -- Fiction
“Wer liebt nicht Wein, Weib, and Gesang,
Er bleibt ein Narr sein Leben lang.”
The waiter brought the sandwiches and beer, yet he did not eat. In the
middle distance certain figures began insistently to stand out,--figures
of women sitting alone wherever he looked he met a provoking gaze. One
woman, a little farther away than the rest, seemed determinedly bent
on getting a nod of recognition, and it was gradually borne in upon
Hodder's consciousness that her features were familiar. In avoiding her
eyes he studied the men at the next table,--or rather one of them, who
loudly ordered the waiters about, who told brief anecdotes that were
uproariously applauded; whose pudgy, bejewelled fingers were continually
feeling for the bottle in the ice beside his chair, or nudging his
companions with easy familiarity; whose little eyes, set in a heavy
face, lighted now and again with a certain expression.....
Suddenly Hodder pushed back his chair and got to his feet, overcome by a
choking sensation like that of being, asphyxiated by foul gases. He
must get out at once, or faint. What he had seen in the man's eyes had
aroused in him sheer terror, for it was the image of something in
his own soul which had summarily gained supremacy and led him hither,
unresisting, to its own abiding-place. In vain he groped to reconstruct
the process by which that other spirit--which he would fain have
believed his true spirit--had been drugged and deadened in its very
flight.
He was aware, as he still stood uncertainly beside the table, of the
white-aproned waiter looking at him, and of some one else!--the woman
whose eyes had been fastened on him so persistently. She was close
beside him, speaking to him.
“Seems to me we've met before.”
He looked at her, at first uncomprehendingly, then with a
dawning realization of her identity. Even her name came to him,
unexpectedly,--Kate Marcy,--the woman in the flat!
“Ain't you going to invite me to have some supper?” she whispered
eagerly, furtively, as one accustomed to be rebuffed, yet bold in spite
of it. “They'll throw me out if they think I'm accosting you.”
How was it that, a moment ago, she had appeared to him mysterious,
inviting? At this range he could only see the paint on her cheeks,
the shadows under her burning eyes, the shabby finery of her gown. Her
wonderful bronze hair only made the contrast more pitiful. He acted
automatically, drawing out for her the chair opposite his own, and sat
down again.
“Say, but I'm hungry!” she exclaimed, pulling off her gloves. She smiled
at him, wanly, yet with a brazen coquettishness become habit.
“Hungry!” he repeated idly.
“I guess you'd be, if you'd only had a fried egg and a cup of coffee
to-day, and nothing last night.”
He pushed over to her, hastily, with a kind of horror, the plate of
sandwiches. She began eating them ravenously; but presently paused, and
thrust them back toward him. He shook his head.
“What's the matter with you?” she demanded.
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