The Inside of the Cup — CompleteChurchill, Winston
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The Inside of the Cup — Complete
Churchill, Winston
Attitude change -- Fiction; Christian ethics -- Fiction; Christian life -- Fiction; Conscience -- Religious aspects -- Fiction
“I can see how one might believe it to be,” he answered. Indeed,
it seemed that his vision had been infinitely extended, that he had
suddenly come into possession of the solution of all the bewildered,
despairing gropings of the human soul. Only awhile ago, for instance,
the mood of self-destruction had been beyond his imagination: tonight
he understood it, though he still looked upon it with horror. And he saw
that his understanding of her--or of any human being--could never be of
the intellect. He had entered into one of those astounding yet simple
relationships wherein truth, and truth alone, is possible. He knew that
such women lied, deceived themselves; he could well conceive that
the image of this first lover might have become idealized in her
vicissitudes; that the memories of the creature-comforts, of first
passion, might have enhanced as the victim sank. It was not only because
she did not attempt to palliate that he believed her.
“I remember the time I met him,--it was only four years ago last spring,
but it seems like a lifetime. It was Decoration Day, and it was so
beautiful I went out with another girl to the Park, and we sat on the
grass and looked at the sky and wished we lived in the country. He was
in an automobile; I never did know exactly how it happened,--we looked
at each other, and he slowed up and came back and asked us to take a
ride. I had never been in one of those things--but that wasn't why I
went, I guess. Well, the rest was easy. He lost his head, and I was just
as bad. You wouldn't believe me if I told you how rich he was: it scared
me when I found out about him, and he was so handsome and full of fun
and spirits, and generous! I never knew anybody like him. Honest, I
never expected he'd want to marry me. He didn't at first,--it was only
after a while. I never asked him to, and when he began to talk about it
I told him it would cut him off from his swell friends, and I knew his
father might turn him loose. Oh, it wasn't the money! Well, he'd get mad
all through, and say he never got along with the old man, and that his
friends would have to take me, and he couldn't live without me. He said
he would have me educated, and bought me books, and I tried to read
them. I'd have done anything for him. He'd knocked around a good deal
since he'd been to Harvard College,--he wasn't what you'd call a saint,
but his heart was all right. And he changed, too, I could see it. He
said he was going to make something out of himself.
“I didn't think it was possible to be so happy, but I had a feeling all
along, inside of me, that it couldn't come off. I had a little flat in
Rutger Street, over on the south side, and everything in the world I
wanted. Well, one day, sure enough, the bell rang and I opened the door,
and there stood a man with side whiskers staring at me, and staring
until I was frightened to death. I never saw such eyes as he had. And
all of a sudden I knew it was his father.
“'Is this Miss Marcy?'” he said.
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