The International Magazine, Volume 4, No. 5, December 1851Various
History
The International Magazine, Volume 4, No. 5, December 1851
Various
Art, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals; Science -- History -- Periodicals
never betrayed myself by even a gesture or hasty word, Mademoiselle
d'Ermay had divined the whole, and was tracking with unerring sagacity,
and into the inmost recesses of my soul, all my wavering resolves. She
saw my timid spirit halting between herself and a rich wife, whilst
harboring, perchance, some vague fancy for change. For so it is; we
are never content with that which we have, but we want more, or we
want something else, and are always wanting to be happy in some other
way than that in which we are so. Eugenie, herself impenetrable,
read my heart as if a book; yet she lavished upon me the same tokens
of affection, and always received me with the same sweet and calm
demeanor. At length, one day, when I was in my study, debating with
myself how and where I should answer my mother's letter, Mademoiselle
d'Ermay entered, every feature of her sweet round face elongated and
sharpened and fixed in frightful rigidity; her soft eyes glared, her
rosy lips were bloodless. I thought she was suddenly seized by illness,
or that some cruel accident had affected her reason. She appeared to
stagger, and I was rising from my seat to support her, when her hand,
laid on my shoulder, pressed me back again into my chair. The skirt of
her dress was turned up as high as her waist, and within its folds her
clenched hands held something which, at each movement she made, sounded
like the small stones in a child's rattle.
"Is it you, Eugenie?" said I.
"Yes, it is I. Do not you know me? _I_ am not changed; _I_ am still the
same."
So she said; but it was no longer the same woman. Her very voice was
altered, a Gorgon, a Megæra stood before me.
"Eugenie! Eugenie!" cried I.
She looked at me steadfastly, and as though the innermost thoughts of
my mind were written on my forehead; and the first words she uttered
fully apprised me that she knew one of my secrets.
"M. le Marquis," said she: she knew my brother was dead. "M. le
Marquis," she continued, in hoarse accents; "listen to me. I have never
mentioned M. de Fosseux to you, and you do not know his story. I must
tell it you. I was the inmate of a convent, young and fair, unhappy
it is true, but pure of heart and discreet in conduct. I might, like
my companions, have taken the veil and passed my life in a cloister,
without either pain or pleasure. M. de Fosseux saw me, and fell in love
with me. You can never know what pains he took, what arts he practised
to seduce me, for I was then a virtuous girl, and my reputation, was
without spot; and though I do not reproach myself for what I have
done--yet I well know that in the world I have judges more severe than
my own conscience."
I made a second attempt to rise; not that I at all foresaw what was
coming, but merely for the purpose of saying a few words to calm her,
but she promptly shut my mouth by fiercely commanding me to listen.
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