The International Magazine, Volume 4, No. 5, December 1851Various
History
The International Magazine, Volume 4, No. 5, December 1851
Various
Art, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals; Science -- History -- Periodicals
"'So, madam,' said the good Mrs. Lacy, with simplicity, 'you must not
think that the guinea a-week is any thing more than an advance on our
part--there will be money enough to repay us--or my dear Miss Ella
would never, never have taken it. She would die in the street first,
she has such a noble spirit of her own. She told me to provide for her
sister's debts,--she had made an arrangement with a publisher to be a
regular contributor to a certain periodical,--she had likewise produced
a few rather popular novels. To effect this she had indeed labored
night and day,--the day with her pupils, half the night with her pen.
She was strong, but human nature could not support this long; and yet
labor as she did, she proceeded slowly in clearing away the debt. I
cannot quite account for that,' said Mrs. Lacy, 'she dressed plainly,
she allowed herself no expense, she made no savings, she paid the
debt very slowly by small instalments, yet she worked herself into a
decline. There seemed to be some hidden, insatiable call for money....'"
If the lady who was recounting all this, had looked at her listener at
that moment, she would have been moved, little as she liked him. A wild
horror took possession of his countenance--his lips became livid--his
cheek ghastly--he muttered a few inarticulate words between his teeth.
But she was occupied with her own reflections, and noticed him not.
"This could not go on for ever," said the lady, presently. "She was
obliged to throw up her situation; soon afterwards the possibility of
writing left her; and she was brought here, where I found her."
"And that it was--that it was, then!" cried the wretched man. 'O Ella,
my child!--my child! I was living, in indolence and indifference, upon
her hard-earned labors! I was eating into her life! And when the supply
ceased, I--I never knew what it was to have a heart!--I thought she was
tired of ministering to her father's wants, and I came to England to
upbraid her!"
"It was too late. She was gone where the wicked cease from troubling,
and where the weary are at rest," said the lady.
"You need not--you need not--my heart is hard, but the dagger has
pierced it at last. You need not drive in the steel: it has done its
work," he rather gasped than said.
The lady felt that she had been too severe. His apparent insensibility
had, it is true, irritated her almost beyond bearing, after all he had
done, and after all that had been suffered for his sake.
"I am sorry if I give you pain. I ought to be sorry for you, not angry."
"Did she never mention me?" he asked, in a tone of agony. "And there
was another, on whom her young heart doted, only too fondly. Did she
never speak of either of us?"
"She spoke of both."
"Tell me what she said."
The lady hesitated.
"I pray tell me--I can bear it."
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