The International Monthly, Volume 3, No. 3, June, 1851Various
History
The International Monthly, Volume 3, No. 3, June, 1851
Various
Art, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals; Science -- History -- Periodicals
Had Benson been in Oldport now, there might have been trouble,
inasmuch as he was not particular about what he said, and not too well
disposed towards Mrs. Harrison, while Ashburner was just in a state of
mind to have fought with his own father on that theme. But Benson was
away, and his absence at this time was not a source of regret to
Ashburner, who felt a little afraid of him, and with some reason, for
our friend Harry was as observant as if he had a fly's allowance of
eyes, and had a knack of finding out things without looking for them,
and of knowing things without asking about them; and he would
assuredly have noticed that Ashburner began to be less closely
attached to his party, and to follow in the train of Mrs. Harrison. As
for Clara Benson, she never troubled herself about the Englishman's
falling off in his attentions to her; if any thing, she was rather
glad of it; her capricious disposition made her tire of a friend in a
short time; she could not endure any one's uninterrupted company--not
even her husband's, who therefore wisely took care to absent himself
from her several times every year.
Moreover, though Ashburner was seen in attendance on the lioness, it
was not constantly or in a pointed manner. He was still fighting with
himself, and, like a man run away with, who has power to guide his
horse though not to stop him, he was so far able to manage his passion
as to keep it from an open display. So absolutely no one suspected
what was the matter with him, or that there was any thing the matter
with him, except the lady herself. Catch a woman not finding out when
a man is in love with her! Sometimes she may delude herself with
imagining a passion where none exists, but she never makes the
converse mistake of failing to perceive it where it does. And how did
the gay Mrs. Harrison, knowing and perceiving herself to be thus
loved, make use of her knowledge? What alteration did it produce in
her conduct and bearing towards her admirer? Absolutely none at all.
Precisely as she had treated him at their first introduction did she
continue to treat him--as if he were one of her everyday
acquaintances, and nothing more. And it is precisely this line of
action that utterly breaks down a man's defences, and makes him more
hopelessly than ever the slave of his fair conqueror. If a woman
declares open hostilities against him, runs him down behind his back,
snubs him to his face, shuns his society,--this at least shows that
she considers his attachment of some consequence--consequence enough
to take notice of, though the notice be unfavorable. His self-respect
may come to the rescue, or his piqued vanity may save him by
converting love into enmity. But a perseverance in never noticing his
love, and feigning to be ignorant of its existence, completely
establishes her supremacy over him.
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