The International Monthly, Volume 3, No. 3, June, 1851Various
History
The International Monthly, Volume 3, No. 3, June, 1851
Various
Art, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals; Science -- History -- Periodicals
One morning the crisis came--not that there was any particular reason
for it then more than at any other time, only he could hold out no
longer. It was a beautiful day, and they had been strolling in one of
the few endurable walks the place afforded--a winding alley near the
hotel, but shrouded in trees, and it was just at the time when most of
the inhabitants were at ten-pins, so that they were tolerably alone.
Now, if ever, was the time; but the more he tried to introduce the
subject, the less possible he found it to make a beginning, and all
the while he could not avoid a dim suspicion that Mrs. Harrison knew
perfectly well what he was trying to drive at, and took a mischievous
pleasure in saying nothing to help him along. So they talked about his
travels and hers, and great people in England and France, and all
sorts of people then at Oldport, and the weather even--all manner of
ordinary topics; and then they walked some time without saying
anything, and then they went back to the hotel. There he felt as if
his last chance was slipping away from him, and in a sudden fit of
desperate courage he followed her up to her parlor without waiting for
an invitation. Hardly was the door closed--he would have given the
world to have locked it--when he begged her to listen to him a few
minutes on a subject of the greatest importance. The lady opened her
large round eyes a little wider; it was the only sign she gave of any
thing approaching to surprise. Then the young man unbosomed himself
just as he stood there--not upon his knees; people used to do that--in
books, at least--but nobody does now. He told her how long he had been
in love with her--how he thought of her all day and all night, and how
wretched he was--how he had tried to subdue his passion, knowing it
was very wrong, and so forth; but really he couldn't help it,
and--and--there he stuck fast; for all the time he had been making
this incoherent avowal, like one in a dream, hardly knowing what he
was about, but conscious only of taking a decisive step, and doing a
very serious thing in a very wild way--all this time, nevertheless, he
had most closely watched Mrs. Harrison, to anticipate his sentence in
some look or gesture of hers. And he saw that there did not move a
line in her face, or a muscle in her whole figure--not a fibre of her
dress even stirred. If she had been a great block of white marble, she
could not have shown less feeling, as she stood up there right
opposite him. If he had asked her to choose a waistcoat pattern for
him, she could not have heard him more quietly. As soon as he had
fairly paused, so that she could speak without immediate interruption,
she took up the reply. It was better that he should go no further, as
she had already understood quite enough. She was very sorry to give
him pain--it was always unpleasant to give pain to any one. She was
also very sorry that he had so deceived himself, and so misapprehended
her character, or misunderstood her conversation.
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