The International Monthly, Volume 5, No. 4, April, 1852Various
History
The International Monthly, Volume 5, No. 4, April, 1852
Various
Art, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals; Science -- History -- Periodicals
Hubert Lyle understood all this at once; he saw how it stood with him,
and how it was to be, on to the very door of the grave; so he folded his
hands upon his breast and bowed down his head; he accepted his destiny,
for he felt that this was not the all of existence. He knew how
strangely sweet beyond the tomb shall seem all the bitterness of this
life; he saw that the earth was to be to his soul what it is to the
outward eyes on a starry winter's night. We know what a contrast there
is in that hour between the world above and the world below: the one
lies so dark and cold, full only of black shadows and the howling of
mournful winds, while the lucid sky that overhangs it, replete with
brightness and glory, teems with radiant stars, which are the type of
those eternal and glorious hopes that cluster for us on the outskirts of
the heaven of revelation. And so it was to be for him: his spirit was to
walk in this world as in a bleak and sunless desert; but it was to be
for ever canopied over with one bright and boundless thought, wherein
were set immutable and numberless, the starlike hopes of one eternity.
Thus was he to live, wholly independent of earth, and indifferent to it.
But no man can walk free while there are chains upon his hands and feet,
and he felt that he was bound to his fellow-creatures by two ropes, as
it were, of iron: the longing to love, and to be beloved. Of these he
must free himself, tearing them off his shrinking flesh as a prisoner
would his manacles. And he did so. He taught himself to look upon all
human beings as not of his kind. Even when every nerve and fibre in his
frame cried out that they were bone of his bone and flesh of his flesh,
he learned to consider them inaccessible for him as the angels in
heaven. Yes, even far more; for he trusted that yet a little while, and
these holy ones should be his dear companions; and so he held communion
with them now. But with men he dared not hazard so much as to give them
a place in his thoughts, for he knew that the dream of their friendship
would become the longing for it, and the longing in his case must turn
to agony; so it came to pass that his strong will, his stern
resignation, compassed that which one might have believed well nigh
unattainable to flesh and blood. He divested himself of all earthly
inclinations and desires, all natural wishes and sympathies, and lived
in this world as though he were utterly alone in it, and sole
representative of a race, differing from those angelic friends whom only
he consented to know as the living population of the universe--a
solitary being placed on this earth as in a desert place, where he was
commanded, for his own needful discipline, to abide, till the world of
spirits should be revealed to him, and he entering there should find a
home and loving friends.
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