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In a little while there would be only himself to make decisions, to
take action, to bear a responsibility for matters which no longer
involved merely himself or his immediate family but embraced people
he had never seen, would never know. Their welfare, resting in his
hands, burdened him with an oppressive weight.
Why should he shoulder this burden. He began to understand why men
here and there evade responsibility, or break down under it, when the
shadow of such responsibility loomed darkly over himself.
He had had no preparation for responsibility. He had lived--he
smiled at the platitude--a sheltered life. Except in one or two
isolated instances, such as his marriage, he had never been compelled
to make a momentous decision. His youth, with its romantic dreaming,
its fastidiousness which had made him shun such physical grossness as
Grove's, had been ordered and directed. So had his more formal
education. Even his four years in the army, except in unimportant
details, had never taken him into the realm of plan and execution.
He had simply been a cog in the military machine, obeying orders,
reissuing those orders to men bound to obey him, as he was himself
bound to obey others. Responsibility rested always in other hands.
He had been aware of that and fairly content to have it so.
But that was at an end. Very soon now, a matter of hours, when the
unconscious old man in a room down the hallway breathed out his tired
life he, Rod Norquay, would become the fulcrum and lever which should
move enormous weights. He would be faced by a necessity to take up a
task which offered little hope of reward save a sense of duty
performed. Other men's welfare, other men's money, other men's sins.
He could draw back from this, or see it through. He could evade it
or grapple it stoutly. But there it was, waiting for him to decide.
Grove had evaded, when he faced the incontrovertible result of his
handiwork. Or had he? No one would ever know. He had gone in
mid-afternoon from the Norquay Trust office to his home. He had
telephoned a friend to join him in a duck hunt at a gun club on the
Ladner flats, had arranged to pick up his friend. He had come out
from the house to the garage, bearing a shotgun, a bag and a shooting
coat, whistling as he came. He spoke to the chauffeur genially.
While the man attended to some detail of his machine the shotgun
cracked and Grove Norquay fell against the running-board. He was
dead before the man could cry for help.
And whether it was sheer accident, or whether he had killed himself
in a moment of despair at the muddle he had wrought, Rod could not
say. Publicly it went as a sad accident. But he knew what his
father thought. He knew, too, what rumors ran like sly foxes in the
street, rumors which did not have their origin in mere conjecture,
but which nevertheless would have brought Grove's financial castle
tumbling about their ears if his father had not been prepared.
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