British Columbia -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; Lumber trade -- Fiction
Rod found work in a logging camp a thing that tried his vigorous
young body to the utmost until he hardened somewhat to the task and
learned what every manual laborer must learn,--to strike a gait he
could hold all day and not one that sapped his energy in two hours.
He found a relief he had not expected in physical exertion. He could
stop thinking about Mary Thorn. He took to work as some men take to
whisky when a dumb ache oppresses them or some haunting memory will
not let them be. And Mary Thorn did haunt him so long as he could
look across from Hawk's Nest at that weathered cedar house. He told
himself that he was a fool to feel that way. But logic had nothing
to do with feeling. Irrational or not, it existed. Something in him
had burned up full flame. Love, the mating instinct, whatever it
was, had settled upon an object and refused to be directed elsewhere.
There was more than sex involved. He did not know precisely what
else, but he was sure of something above and beyond the urge of the
flesh, however strong that might be. Because he couldn't say to
himself that there were other girls and be consoled. Another girl
wouldn't do.
He couldn't rid himself of the notion that he and Mary Thorn were
made for each other. His mind went questing forward and backward and
verified the emotional prompting. They had been shaping their own
destiny for years. Or was it being shaped for them? He couldn't
decide. But he could trace some indefinable influence drawing them
together since childhood. There had always been a subtle pleasure in
being together, a community of personal interest, a flowing of
thoughts and feelings along the same channel that transcended the
material factors in their lives. The material factors were prying
them apart now. Rod saw that. He knew Mary's inflexibility once she
determined on a given course. He had beaten his will against that in
simple, childish matters. She would not be driven. She would walk
her own road. She had always been a silently determined, lovable
little devil, Rod told himself sadly. She was herself uniquely,
neither a pattern nor an echo, and he would have loved her for that
alone in a world where girls were very largely patterns or echoes,
armed for conquest in the arena of men with the sole weapon of their
sex.
Rod would say to himself that she was wrong, that money and caste and
social privilege made no difference. But his mind was too acute not
to see that she was right. Where he differed from her, what he
resented most was her conviction of the importance of these things to
him. That resentment kept him away from Mary Thorn as much as her
positive refusal. He was too much the youthful egotist not to
believe he could ultimately break that down. But he did not wish to
coerce her, even through her own affection, until he saw a breach in
the Norquay wall through which they could walk together.
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