It was after one of those miserable discussions between the husband and
wife that Blair had gone out of the hotel with violent words of
despair. He never knew just where he spent that day--certainly not in
the office at the Works; but wherever it was, it brought him face to
face with his opportunity. Should he accept it? Should he refuse it? He
said to himself that he could not decide. Perhaps he was right; he had
shirked decisions all his life; perhaps so great a decision was
impossible for him. At any rate, he thought it was. Something must
decide for him. What should it be? All that afternoon he tried to make
a small decision which should settle the great decision. Of course, he
might pitch up a penny? no, the swiftness of such judgment seemed
beyond endurance; he might say: "if it rains before noon, I'll let her
go;" then he could watch the skies, and meet the decision gradually;
no; it rained so often in March! If when he got back to the hotel he
found her wearing this piece of jewelry or that; if the grimy pigeon,
teetering up and down on the granite coping across the street, flew
away before he reached the next crossing. . . . On and on his mind
went, jibing away, terrified, from each suggestion; then returning to
it again. It was dusk when he came back to the hotel. David's mother
was sitting with Elizabeth, and they were talking, idly, of Nannie's
new house, or Cherry-pie's bad cold, or anything but the one thing that
was always on their minds, when, abruptly, Blair entered. He flung open
the door with a bang,--then stood stock-still on the threshold. He was
very pale, but the room was so shadowy that his pallor was not noticed.
"Why are you sitting here in the dark!" he cried out, violently. "Why
don't you light the gas? Good God!" he said, almost with a sob.
Elizabeth looked at him in astonishment; before she could reply that
she and Mrs. Richie liked the dusk and the firelight, he saw that she
was not alone, and burst into a loud laugh: "Mrs. Richie here? How
appropriate!" He came forward into the circle of flickering light, but
he seemed to walk unsteadily and his face was ghastly. Helena Richie
gave him a startled look. Blair's gentleness had never failed David's
mother before; she thought, with consternation, that he had been
drinking. Perhaps her gravity checked his reckless mood, for he said
more gently: "I beg your pardon; I didn't see you, Mrs. Richie. I was
startled because everything was dark. Outer darkness! Please don't
go,--it's so appropriate for you to be here!" he ended. Again his voice
was sardonic. Mrs. Richie said, coldly, that she had been just about to
return to her own room. As she left them, she said to herself,
anxiously, that she was afraid there was something the matter. She
would have been sure of it had she stayed in the twilight with the
husband and wife.
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