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“That,” returned Ferrand, “like all proverbs, is just half true. This is
an affair of temperament. It 's not in my character to dandle one when
I see two waiting to be caught; 'voyager, apprendre, c'est plus fort que
moi'.” He paused; then, with a nervous goggle of the eyes and an ironic
smile he said: “Besides, 'mon cher monsieur', it is better that I go. I
have never been one to hug illusions, and I see pretty clearly that my
presence is hardly acceptable in this house.”
“What makes you say that?” asked, Shelton, feeling that the murder was
now out.”
“My dear sir, all the world has not your understanding and your lack of
prejudice, and, though your friends have been extremely kind to me, I
am in a false position; I cause them embarrassment, which is not
extraordinary when you reflect what I have been, and that they know my
history.”
“Not through me,” said Shelton quickly, “for I don't know it myself.”
“It's enough,” the vagrant said, “that they feel I'm not a bird of
their feather. They cannot change, neither can I. I have never wanted to
remain where I 'm not welcome.”
Shelton turned to the window, and stared into the darkness; he would
never quite understand this vagabond, so delicate, so cynical, and he
wondered if Ferrand had been swallowing down the words, “Why, even you
won't be sorry to see my back!”
“Well,” he said at last, “if you must go, you must. When do you start?”
“I 've arranged with a man to carry my things to the early train. I
think it better not to say good-bye. I 've written a letter instead;
here it is. I left it open for you to read if you should wish.”
“Then,” said Shelton, with a curious mingling of relief, regret,
good-will, “I sha'n'. see you again?”
Ferrand gave his hand a stealthy rub, and held it out.
“I shall never forget what you have done for me,” he said.
“Mind you write,” said Shelton.
“Yes, yes”--the vagrant's face was oddly twisted--“you don't know what
a difference it makes to have a correspondent; it gives one courage. I
hope to remain a long time in correspondence with you.”
“I dare say you do,” thought Shelton grimly, with a certain queer
emotion.
“You will do me the justice to remember that I have never asked you for
anything,” said Ferrand. “Thank you a thousand times. Good-bye!”
He again wrung his patron's hand in his damp grasp, and, going out, left
Shelton with an odd sensation in his throat. “You will do me the justice
to remember that I have never asked you for anything.” The phrase seemed
strange, and his mind flew back over all this queer acquaintanceship.
It was a fact: from the beginning to the end the youth had never really
asked for anything. Shelton sat down on his bed, and began to read the
letter in his hand. It was in French.
DEAR MADAME (it ran),
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