"Thank you," he said. "You can not tell what I have suffered since I was
startled by the sudden intelligence."
"Who told you?" I asked.
"I got to know by a strange accident," he replied. "I happened to go
into one of the surgical wards of the infirmary yesterday evening;
suddenly I heard some one call me by my name. I went to the bed from
which the voice had come, and there I found a Jewish lad lying--it was
Salomon Pinkus, brother of Chaim Pinkus, the cattle-dealer at Barnow.
Salomon told me sadly that he had brought some cattle belonging to his
brother to Vienna, had sold them well, and was preparing to return home,
when he slipped on some ice in the street and broke his arm. 'I didn't
want to go to Vienna,' he whined--'I was afraid; but I had to do it, as
my brother could not leave home just then--he is to be married to
Rachel, daughter of the butcher at Barnow, next week.'--'To whom did you
say?' I cried, catching his sound arm in such a firm grip that he
shrieked out that I wanted to break it too. Well, he afterward told me
that his brother's bride was Rachel Welt--he was sure that I must know
her--I think he chuckled when he said it--'she had refused to marry
Chaim for a long time, but had suddenly come to her senses again, and
was now quite willing to take him....'
"He told me a good deal more, and though I answered him, I can't
remember what I said. I only know that I ran away from him in the end,
and, rushing out-of-doors, paced the streets all night like a madman,
unheeding the storm and the cold. What I felt I can never describe, nor
would you understand if I were to attempt to do so...."
"Poor fellow!" I answered, compassionately.
"No," he cried, passionately, "you couldn't understand, nor would any
one. It was not a mere boyish affair, you see--such a thing would have
been impossible to me. It was the first great passion of my life, and it
will be the last. I have poured out all the love my nature is capable of
feeling at that girl's feet, and if she has deceived me, I shall go mad
or die. Believe me, I am not exaggerating--I can read my own case as
clearly as if it were physical illness from which I am suffering: as a
proof of this, let me tell you that love never made me blind; I always
saw the difficulties that would beset Rachel's path and mine. I know
that no one could well imagine anything more opposite than our habits of
mind and opinions on every subject. She and I have both to thank
orthodox Judaism for this. But I also know that the barriers between us
are not insuperable. If I have been man enough to make my own life and
open a career for myself, I shall also be man enough to raise my wife to
my own level. There is only one thing that could crush me--only one: if
Rachel were untrue!..."
"And do you think that possible?" I asked.
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