"Well," he continued, "the young Polish Jew, who knew Lessing, and
delighted in Schiller's poetry, awakened his sympathy. He gave me the
means of studying. The ancient world was now revealed to me in the books
to which I had access at college. I saw it in all its cheerful
light-heartedness, and also in its thoughtfulness and depth. But that
was not the kind of knowledge for which I thirsted. I then made natural
science my principal study. My researches were all confined to the realm
of matter. At length the need of leading a practically active life grew
more and more apparent to me. The fire of youth had begun to smolder; I
gave up trying to raise the veil of Isis, and endeavoring to discover
the reason of every natural phenomenon. I became a doctor, and I can now
say that I made a reputation for skill in my profession. I had changed
my name. David Blum would have had many stumbling-blocks and
disagreeables in his path that Friedrich Reimann was spared. I did not
change my religion with my name--from habit, if you like--for I was
indifferent to every form of dogmatic religion.
"My practice increased, and I became one of the first physicians in the
northern seaport town where I had settled. Then old Prince Sugatscheff
was taken ill in Paris, and sent for me. It was his last illness. Before
his death, he entreated me to be a faithful friend to his young son, and
to accompany him everywhere as his private physician until I thought him
capable of taking care of himself, and of withstanding the temptations
of the great world. I gave him the promise that destroyed my own career;
but he was the only man who had felt a real friendship for me, and he
was the only one whom I loved next to my mother.
"I discovered the whole responsibility and painfulness of my position
very soon after his death. Prince Alexius was a light-minded and
depraved, if not absolutely bad man. I did my duty without caring
whether it made him dislike me or not; he respected me at least. It was
a time of great anxiety and trouble; one thing alone sustained me, and
that was the consciousness of having done my duty. Then we went to
Baden-Baden, where I made your acquaintance, Frau Graefin...."
She had until now listened to him with bent head, but at these words she
fixed her eyes upon his face, as though awaiting a sentence of life or
death. And he continued, with a slight quiver in his voice:
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