As the door closed behind the girl, she let her face fall between her
hands, and sat a long time buried in thought. The words spoken by Rosel
rang in her ears: "When are we women ever consulted as to what we should
like? I am a poor girl, and he has taken me, and provided for me, that
is all--my God, all!..."
She kept her eyes firmly closed, but she could not shut them to the
truth any longer. Her whole life lay before her, and she knew that she
was living a lie. "I belong to Nathan, body and soul--not because it was
my will--not because it was his will--but because our fathers desired
it. And now, when I feel that I am a human being, with a heart and will
of my own--when I love another, I must either be miserable, or ..."
She did not finish her sentence, for she was no longer able to control
her thoughts. She was filled with self-commiseration, and burning tears
fell from her eyes. She forgot where she was, and that he whom she
loved, and yet feared to meet, might come at any moment. She was first
roused by the monastery bell ringing at twelve o'clock, and tried to
recover her composure.
It was too late. He stood within the door he had just opened.
They had never hitherto spoken of their love for each other. They had
scarcely known that it existed. But when he came near her, and took her
hand in his, gazing into her large, soft, tearful eyes, which were fixed
pathetically upon his face, their love was revealed to him, and all the
sorrow it must bring. She, too, knew that her love was returned as he
gently smoothed her hair back from her forehead, and tried to comfort
her. Then he let her hands fall and left her side.
"We shall have much to endure," he said, as if their love and all its
consequences were mutually understood. "But we must be firm. I have much
to say to you, but this is not the right time or place; and this
evening"--he hesitated, and then continued: "your husband is coming
back, and I will not ask you to give me an interview in secret from him.
I will write to you, and tell you what I think we ought to do."
He pressed her hand and went into the _casino_.
Chane got up from her chair, and sent the apprentice, who had been
rubbing up the silver and brass utensils in preparation for the feast,
into the shop. She remained in the kitchen preparing for the Sabbath,
and for the return of her husband. She did everything carefully, but her
manner was different from usual.
"Have you a headache, ma'am?" asked the maid-servant, seeing her
suddenly clasp her hands upon her brow, as if she were trying to
recollect something. She felt confused and at a loss, but yet there was
some secret source of joy.
In the evening the office-boy brought her a note.
"From the district judge to your husband," he said; but when she opened
the envelope, she found that it contained a letter addressed to herself.
She did not open it, trembling for its purport.
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