Sighing deeply, he replaced the folio on the shelf, but when he tried to
close the doors of the bookcase, he found that the little volume which
had fallen unobserved prevented his doing so. He picked it up and looked
at it. Memories of the past came back in a flood as he recognized the
German book he had read so often as a youth. He had never quite
understood its contents, and yet had studied it again and again, because
of the sympathetic emotion it aroused in him. Schiller's poems, which he
had laid aside for so many years, came into his hands again at this dark
hour of his life....
He sat down at the table, opened the book, and began to read. His
youthful days returned vividly to his mind. One poem he had read beneath
the old oak-tree in the park, and another he had surreptitiously studied
in a corner of the cellar when he was overlooking his father's workmen.
As he read on, he found to his surprise that he understood the whole
meaning of the poems, and yet he had learned nothing new since these old
days, except perhaps the secrets of the wine-trade. Each poem made a
deep impression on him. It was so different from all that he had found
in it before! Whether better or worse he did not stop to inquire; but
the influence must have been good, for his heart felt relieved of the
load that had oppressed it.
He rose and walked about the room in the stillness of the early Sabbath,
repeating in a whisper some of the words he had just read. The only
sound that was to be heard was the sputtering of one or other of the
numerous wax-lights, or the fall of a heavy rain-drop against the
window-pane.
* * * * *
Morning came at last. The rain had ceased falling, and the last clouds
were being driven by the wind across the leaden sky. In the east the sun
was beginning to redden, and send its first bright rays upon the sodden
plain: it had also penetrated to Nathan's parlor.
It found him still awake, but he was no longer restless, or speaking to
himself. He stood quietly by the window, his face turned toward the
east. The reflection of the sunrise lighted up his pale worn face, on
which the calmness and peace of determined action were expressed. His
eyes were fixed steadily on the east, and he seemed to be praying,
though his lips did not move.
He had stood there a long time communing with God in the silence of the
early morning.
The other inmates of the house began to stir. The servants held
whispered consultations; they guessed that something unusual had
happened.
Chane left her room. Her face was pale, and her eyes were red with
weeping. She approached Nathan with bent head.
"Chane," he said, gently, "I have made up my mind. I hope that what I
mean to do will be for the best for you--and for him. As for me, our God
is a merciful God--He will not forsake me."
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