Rachel never complained of her lot by word or sigh. She went about the
house as usual, and did her work as long as she could. When her strength
failed her, and she knew that her end was at hand, she sat down
tremblingly and wrote a long letter in the Hebrew character, sealed it,
and then tottered out to the post-office with it. She asked the clerk to
write the address for her in German: "An den wohlgeborenen Herrn Dr.
Adolph Leiblinger, hollaendischen Stabsartz in Batavia." The young man
smiled when she dictated this address to him, but on glancing at her
face and seeing that the hand of death was upon her, his smile died
away. She got a receipt for the letter which she registered, and then
tottered home and died.
Hers was a very simple story--simple as all the stories one meets with
in real life, which differ from those thought out in a poet's
brain--inasmuch as life is the greatest and most unrelenting of poets.
When I attempt to transcribe the events of this story, I can not remain
calm and unmoved, for I knew beautiful, unhappy Esterka Regina!...
I knew her when she was a little girl of seven years old, and I was a
mischievous boy, grumbling at the strict discipline of school. I used to
see her every day at that time. When I ran down the gloomy little street
on cold winter mornings with my satchel of books on my back, I was in
the habit of stopping at the door of the house in which she lived, and
calling out "Aaron! Aaron!" for one of my school-fellows--black
Aaron--lived in a poor garret of the same house with his mother. Hirsch
Welt had given the use of this room out of charity to Chane Leiblinger,
who was the widow of a butcher's man; for she was very poor, and could
scarcely keep herself and her boy from starving by the exercise of her
trade of fruit-seller. The moment I had called Aaron, the door opened
very softly, and little Rachel came out, her hands hidden under her
pinafore. Then the poor boy came down the worm-eaten wooden stairs,
dressed in threadbare clothing, and Rachel hastily thrust the food she
had been hiding in her pinafore into his hand.
He took it, often with hesitation, and always without a word of thanks;
but he would look at the child strangely and smile. No one who had not
seen it could have believed that that grave, stern-looking boy could
smile, and smile so kindly too!...
"Aaron, will you come with me to the ice? I am going to slide."
"No."
"Why not? You're always so quiet, and your eyes look so gloomy!"
"What reason have I to be happy? Is poverty such a cheering thing? Cold
is very disagreeable, and so is hunger. Or is it the blows I have to
endure that should make me happy? The schoolmaster beats me, and so do
all the Christian boys; and why? Because we crucified _Him_? _I_ didn't
crucify Him. Why do they beat me?"
"Oh, it'll be all right when we're grown up and are barristers."
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