The Journal of Arthur Stirling : ("The Valley of the Shadow")Sinclair, Upton
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The Journal of Arthur Stirling : ("The Valley of the Shadow")
Sinclair, Upton
Authors -- Fiction
The last chapter runs into absolute brutality. I am accustomed to say that
Gautier is a ruffian author, but if there is any ruffianism in Gautier more
savage than that sentiment about the “skinful of champagne,” I do not know
where to find it.
About such stuff as that I would say that it makes me sick, but it is not
worth that--it simply makes me tired. One would not call it impudent,
because it is so silly--it is the driveling of a fool. He will get me off
in a corner now, will he, and probe my soul? “Out with it!--Why not confess
that you'd like to live a life of dissipation if you only had the money!”
Why, you poor fool, before I would live such a life, I'd have my eyes torn
out, and my ears torn off, and my fingers, and my hands, and my feet. “Why
not confess the wild joys of getting drunk on champagne!” Poor fool, I have
never tasted champagne.
* * * * *
--“Perhaps that is just the reason,” you add. When the folly of a fool
reaches its climax, the fool becomes a wit. But possibly that is it, I
never was drunk.
--And yet I know something about drunkenness. I once buried a drunkard. He
was my father. He died in a delirium.
* * * * *
There must be something young about my attitude--men smile at me. But I do
not find it easy to imagine evil of men. I do not mean the crowd--I do not
philosophize about the crowd. But I mean the artists. I was looking at a
picture of Musset the other day; it was a noble face--the face of a man;
and in the face of a man I read dignity and power--high things that I love
and bow before. Here are lips,--and lips are things that speak of beauty;
here are eyes,--and eyes are things that seek the light. And now to gaze
upon that face and say: “This man lived in foulness; he was the slave of
hateful lust--he died rotten, and sodden with drink.”--I say that I do not
find it easy.
* * * * *
I have nothing to do with any artist who has anything to do with
sin--anything, one way or the other. If a man must still think about sin,
let him go back, and let him go down,--let him be a Christian. Let him
wrestle with his body, overcome himself, obey laws, and learn fear. To such
men and to such ways I can only say: “I have nothing to do with you.” My
life is for free men--my words are for free men--for men defying law and
purged of fear, for men mad with righteousness. What right have foul men
in the temple of my muse? The thought of them is insult to me--away with
them--in their presence I will not speak of what I love. For I am a
drunkard--yes, and I am drunk all night and all day! And I am a lover--a
free lover--knowing no law and defying all restraint. And how can I say
such things in the presence of foul men?
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