2) Yesterday I thought that the form of thinking--categories--are not seven but four: cause, matter, space, time. But only one: movement, encloses everything in itself. Movement is a change of place, therefore there is space; change of place can be swifter and slower, therefore there is time; and a preceding movement is a cause, a following one, an effect; that which is displaced is matter. Everything is movement. Man himself moves incessantly and therefore everything explains itself to him by movement alone. 3) The most harmful effect of an evil act is that when a man accomplishes it he frees himself from the demands of his conscience. “We eat animals, therefore why not hunt?”--... and so you have no need to stand on ceremony ... etc. 4) A strange thought came to me. Our whole life is in this, that we consider ourselves a separate unit, an individual, a man. But besides this being specialised, individualised, from all others, chemistry discloses for us entirely different separate units, acids, nitrogen, etc. They are separate and therefore they have life. (Nonsense.) _May 12. Grinevka. If I live._ _To-day May 15. Morning. Grinevka._ Within these two days I went to Mtsensk,[317] Kukuevka, and yesterday to Batyevo.[318] Wrote _Hadji Murad_ unwillingly. I have exercised again.[319] It is stupid, almost an insanity. Wrote a poor letter to Posha. I am pleased with every one here. Just now I have reread this journal and it did not leave me very dissatisfied. Oh, if I would only remember more my transitory, subservient condition here! Have made no entries. My health would be good if my back weren’t aching. Began to write letters. Not succeeding. One must wait peacefully and live before God. _May 16. Grinevka. If I live._ _To-day May 19. Grinevka._ Sonya was here. She arrived the 17th. This morning she went away. I have been trying to write these two days. Can’t do anything. An exceptional weakness and pain in my spinal column. _To-day May 20. Evening. Grinevka._ This morning I wrote rather much on _The Appeal_. In the evening I wrote 13 letters. Went nowhere. My back is better. The main thing, is that my brain is working and I am happy. Received 500 roubles, and 1000 roubles are lying in Cherni.[320] I am not going to write any more, although I have many notes. _To-day May 27. Grinevka. In the morning._ During this time I wrote _The Appeal_ and finished the article on the condition of the people.[321] Just now I am writing to write out my notes--there is much that has to be written out--that everything which is said in Paul (Corinthians xiii) about love has to be said, and even more--about the renunciation of oneself. It is impossible to lay up love within oneself--but the renunciation of oneself is possible. It suffices to renounce oneself and love will arise.