The last time I wrote it was November 25, which means a month and a week. I made entries in Yasnaya Polyana, then I was in Moscow, where I did not make one entry. At the end of November I went to Pirogovo. I returned on the first and since that time have not been quite well--the small of my back ached and still aches, and lately I have had something like bilious fever. It is the second day that I am better. All this time I have been occupied exclusively with _Resurrection_.[374] I have had some communications about the Dukhobors,[375] an innumerable pile of letters. Kolechka Gay is with me, with whom it is a rest to be.... I am calm in the fashion of an old man. And that is all. There is quite a lot to write out. I am going to write it out on the pages I skipped. Lately I feel as if my interest in _Resurrection_ has weakened, and I joyously feel other, more important, interests, in the understanding of life and death. Much seems clear. Made an entry, the 2nd of January. To-day, _Feb. 21_. _Moscow._ More than six weeks that I have made no entries. Am all the time in Moscow. At first _Resurrection_ went well, then I cooled off entirely.[376] I wrote a letter to the non-commissioned officer[377] and to the Swedish papers.[378] For about three days I have again taken up _Resurrection_. Am advancing. Students’ strike. They are trying to drag me in all the time.[379] I am counselling them to hold themselves passively, but I do not feel like writing letters to them. ... As to me--my back is better. There is living with us, an interesting and live Frenchman, Sinet,--the first religious Frenchman.[380] There is very much that I ought to write out. Have been in a very bad mood; now all right. _Feb. 22. Moscow._ _June 26. Yasnaya Polyana._ Four months that I have made no entries. I will not say I have lived badly all this time. I have worked and am working diligently on _Resurrection_. There is much that is good, there is that, in the name of which I write. During these days I have been gravely ill; now well.... Difficult relations because of the printing and translating of _Resurrection_,[381] but most of the time am calm. Neglected correspondence. They continue sending money for the famine-stricken, but I can do nothing else but send it to them through the post.[382] Kolichka is with me helping me in the work. ... I continue to write out from my note-book: 14) Nearing the place of destination, one thinks more and more often of that place to which one is nearing. Thus also while nearing death, the change of destination. 15) Only always to remember that there is no other meaning in life, no other way of finding the joy of life, but through fulfilling His will. And how peacefully and joyously one could live! 16) In time of illness, to fulfil His will by preparing oneself for the going over into another form.