The Journal to Eliza and Various letters by Laurence Sterne and Elizabeth DraperSterne, Laurence
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The Journal to Eliza and Various letters by Laurence Sterne and Elizabeth Draper
Sterne, Laurence
Draper, Elizabeth, 1744-1778; Novelists, English -- 18th century -- Correspondence; Sterne, Laurence, 1713-1768 -- Correspondence
Thought—’tis no hard matter, “to dwell in Decency’s forever”—those who
find Virtue painful,—have endeavor’d, and succeeded in it—I should not
have imagined, that M^{rs}. & Miss Sterne needed to have been told,
there were greater Wants, than what result’d from an Ignorance of, or
Defect in mere Ceremonies—these have their use, no Doubt—and I can
admire them as much as any Body in Dissipated Life, where nothing
superior to Amusing the Imagination, is I suppose aimed at tho’ serious
consequences do sometimes happen from our frequenting such scenes—but I
should form a very queer opinion of a Friend—or Stranger, who had it in
their Power to oblige me—Meant to do so—and either tête-à-tête, or by
Letter—prefaced the Intention with the Flatteries agreable enough in a
Rout Room—any fashionable Circle or Epistle Dedicatory—for there, they
are common, and one naturally expects to find ’em. Any species of
Civility, I could have exerted towards M^{rs}. Sterne, in the Crisis you
know of, would have been just as _ill-timed_. Complaisance, if not
something more hyperbolical—for I certainly entertained a most
unfavorable opinion of her—and thought I paid a high Compliment to her
Delicacy in forbearing to speak of her at all—as my Imagination
suggested nothing good—and to profess a liking or solicitude about
Persons, or Things, I am no way interested about—it’s what I cannot do,
my dear James—Nor do I Honor Those who Can—A few words more, of the
Widow & Daughter, and then I hope to have done with the subject—when I
think of Miss Sternes reply, to a letter replete with kindness—for such
I am sure it was, because such, I meant it should be—and the Mother
starting any difficulties to oblige me in a Point I had much at
Heart—because I had neglected a mere Ceremony—which in my Case—could
have meant just nothing at all at the very best—I can, and do pronounce
from my very soul—that I think them as unworthy my Friendship—as any two
Persons, I know, or ever yet heard of—and it does indeed, wound both my
Pride, and Love, that the Woman in Life, I most Value—should bring them
into Competition with myself, when she names me as her Friend—her dear
Eliza.—I hate Competitions in Love, or Friendship; and am not more
Jealous in the one Case, than in the other—but you my dear James, have
nothing to apprehend, on the score of this Passion, for it is of that
quiet sort which can offend nobody, or prey on anything but my own
Peace—I do not love easily—but my Affections once given—and they are
irrecoverable, whether treated with the Distinction they Merit or not—I
have no Idea of loving any two Friends equally, or indeed with the same
species of Affection, _My_, Heart, naturally forms an Election—and would
I think—sooner break, than suffer the Preference due to that Choice, to
be at all Infringed upon—Esteem—Complacency—it doubtless would ever be
susceptible of, where the worthy were to be found; and different degrees
of these Qualities as the Objects were more or less Amiable—or
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