The girl was haunted by it all. As soon as she had put down her candle
after entering her room she threw herself upon her bed, without having
the energy to undress. All the gaiety of spirit which she had shown
during the day, all her calmness and restraint, weighed upon her like
a too heavy gown. The day, like those which had preceded it, and like
those which would follow, had passed away amidst that feeling of
hopelessness with which Lazare's moody _ennui_ contaminated the whole
house. What was the use of striving to appear bright and cheerful, when
she was unable to cast a gleam of sunshine on him she so dearly loved?
Lazare's former cruel remark still rankled in her heart. They were too
lonely, and it was her jealousy that was to blame for it; it was she
who had sent their friends away. She would not name Louise to herself,
and she tried not to think about her; but she could not succeed in
banishing the memory of that girl, with the winning ways and coquettish
airs which had amused Lazare, who grew bright at the mere rustling of
her gown. The minutes glided on, and still Pauline could not drive
Louise from her thoughts. She felt sure it was for her that Lazare was
anxiously longing, that all that was wanted to set him right again was
to send for the girl. And every evening when Pauline went upstairs and
threw herself wearily on her bed she relapsed into those same thoughts
and visions, and was tortured by the idea that the happiness of her
dear ones depended perhaps upon another than herself.
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