When she had vented a little of her indignation in this explosion over
her fire, she went out on to the terrace again, exclaiming, 'Don't you
know that lunch has been ready for more than an hour? The potatoes are
fried to cinders!'
They all ate with good appetites, but Chanteau was the only one whose
mirth flowed freely, and fortunately he was too gay to notice the
persistent constraint of the others. Though they showed themselves
very affectionate, still, beneath it all, there lurked a touch of
that uneasy sadness which manifests itself in one who forgives an
irreparable insult, but cannot altogether forget it. The afternoon was
spent in installing the new-comer in her room. She again occupied her
old quarters on the first floor. If Madame Chanteau could only have
come downstairs to dinner, with her quick, short step, nothing would
have appeared changed in the house.
For nearly a week longer this uneasy constraint lasted amongst
the young people. Lazare, who did not dare to question Pauline,
was altogether unable to understand what he considered her most
extraordinary caprice; for any idea of a sacrifice, of a determination
deliberately and magnanimously taken, never occurred to him. He
himself, amidst the desires fanned by his listless idleness, had never
thought of marrying Louise; and so now, on being all three placed
together again, they found themselves in a false position, which
caused them much distress. There were pauses of silent embarrassment,
and sentences that remained half unspoken from fear of conveying any
allusion to the past. Pauline, surprised at this unexpected state of
affairs, was obliged to exaggerate and force her gaiety, in the hope
of bringing back a semblance of the careless merriment of former days.
At first she felt a wave of joy rising in her heart, for she thought
that Lazare was coming back to her. The presence of Louise had calmed
him; he almost avoided her, and shunned being alone with her, horrified
at the thought that he might even yet be weak enough to betray his
cousin's confidence. Tortured by a feverish affection for Pauline, he
attached himself to her, and in tones of emotion proclaimed her to be
the best of girls, a true saint, of whom he was utterly unworthy. And
so she felt very happy, and rejoiced greatly in what she thought was
her victory, when she saw her cousin pay such little attention to
Louise. At the end of the week she even began to reproach him for his
want of amiability towards her rival.
'Why do you always run off and leave us? It really quite vexes me. She
isn't here for us to be rude to her.'
Lazare avoided replying, making only a vague gesture. Then his cousin
ventured to make an allusion to what had previously happened:
'I brought her here so that you might know that I have long ago
forgiven you. I wanted to wipe out every remembrance of it, as though
it were all some horrid dream. It is done with now. I am no longer
afraid, you see. I have perfect confidence in you both.'
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