The next morning she came downstairs at her accustomed hour. There
was nothing about her to reveal the night of torture she had spent
except the heaviness of her eyes. She was pale and quite calm. When
Lazare appeared in his turn, he explained his air of weary lassitude by
telling his father that he had sat up late, working. The day passed in
the usual way. Neither Pauline nor Lazare made any reference to what
had occurred between them, even when they found themselves alone and
free from all observation. They made no attempt to avoid each other;
they appeared quite confident of themselves. But in the evening, when
they wished each other good-night on the landing near their rooms,
they fell into each other's arms, and their lips met in a kiss. Then
Pauline, full of alarm, hastily escaped and locked herself in her room,
while Lazare, too, rushed away, bursting into tears.
It was thus that they continued to bear themselves towards each other.
The days slowly glided away, and the cousins lived on together in
constant anxiety of possible backsliding. Though they never spoke of
such a thing, and never referred to that terrible night, they thought
of it continually and were filled with fear. Their sense of what was
right and honourable remained undimmed, and every sudden little lapse,
any embrace or stolen kiss, left them full of anger with themselves.
But neither had the courage to take the only safe step, that of
immediate separation. Pauline, believing that it would be cowardly for
her to flee, persisted in remaining in the presence of danger; while
Lazare, absorbed in his transports, did not even reply to the pressing
letters he received from his wife. He had now been six weeks at
Bonneville, and he and Pauline had begun to believe that this existence
of alternate pain and sweetness would go on for ever.
One Sunday, at dinner, Chanteau became quite gay, after venturing
to drink a glass of Burgundy, a luxury for which he had to pay very
dearly each time that he indulged in it. Pauline and Lazare had spent
some delightful hours together by the sea under the bright blue sky,
exchanging looks full of tenderness, though marked with that haunting
fear of themselves which infused such passion into their intimacy.
They were all three smiling, when Véronique, who was just about to
bring in the dessert, called from the door of the kitchen:
'Here comes Madame!'
'Madame who?' cried Pauline, with a feeling of stupefaction.
'Madame Louise!'
They all broke out into exclamations. Chanteau, quite scared, gazed
at Pauline and Lazare, who had turned very pale. But the latter rose
excitedly from his seat and stammered angrily:
'What! Louise? She never told me she was coming, and I had forbidden
her to do so. She must be mad!'
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