Mountain life -- Fiction; Tennessee, East -- Fiction
dark foliage that pressed close about it, had a glimpse of the green
cloth of the tables, the red and white balls, the dexterously poised
cues, the alertly attitudinizing figures,--still loitering in white
flannels, although the lights now agleam in bedroom windows told that
all the world had begun to dress for the ball,--and heard the pleasant,
mirthful voices.
Why did he linger here, he asked himself, as he repressed the natural
mundane interest which almost spoke out his criticism as he watched
the game with the eye of a connoisseur. This was not for him. He was
not of this world. He had quitted it forever. And if he were mortified
to fill a place in a sphere so infinitely removed from that to which
he was born and entitled, would it better matters to emerge from his
decent obscurity and his promised opportunities, his honest repute
and his simple happiness, to the conspicuous position as the cynosure
of all eyes in a criminal trial, and to the permanent seclusion of a
felon’s cell? For that was what he risked in these hankerings after the
status and the sphere from which he was cast out forever.
He was in the darkening road and plodding homeward before this
admonition to his own rebellious heart was concluded, so did the
terrors of that possible ignominious fate dominate his pride, and
scorch his sensibility, and lay his honest self-respect in the dust. He
was tired. The drops stood on his forehead and his step lagged. Thrice
the distance in the time he had walked it would not have so reduced
his strength as did the mental perturbation, the inward questionings,
those tumultuous plungings of his strong young heart. He was pale, and
his face was lined and bore some vague impress of the nervous stress he
had sustained, when at last he came up the steps of the open passage at
Sims’s house, and Jane Ann bent her anxious flabby countenance toward
him.
“Waal, before the Lawd!” she exclaimed, holding the tallow dip in her
hand so as to throw its light full upon him,--and he divined that at
frequent intervals in the last two hours she had emerged thus with the
candle in her hand to listen for his step,--“hyar the chile be at last!
Whar in the name o’ sense hev ye been, John Leonard?” she demanded, as
Phemie fluttered out, pale and wistful despite her embarrassed laughter
at the folly of their fright, and old Tubal Cain followed stiffly, with
sundry grooves of anxiety added to the normal corrugations of his face.
“In the woods,” replied the juggler; and then realizing that he spoke
with a covert meaning, “I lost my way.”
He slept the sleep of exhaustion that night, and the next morning
he rose refreshed in body, and with the resolutions of his sober
reflections confirmed.
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