Domestic fiction; Ireland -- Fiction; Land tenure -- Fiction; Landlord and tenant -- Fiction; Landowners -- Fiction
How horrible then was the state of Barry’s mind! For a time he was
absolutely stupified with despair; he stood fixed on the spot where the
doctor had left him, realising, bringing home to himself, the tidings
which he had heard. His sister to rise again, as though it were from
the dead, to push him off his stool! Was he to fall again into that
horrid low abyss in which even the Tuam attorney had scorned him; in
which he had even invited that odious huxter’s son to marry his sister
and live in his house? What! was he again to be reduced to poverty, to
want, to despair, by her whom he so hated? Could nothing be
done?—Something must be done—she should not be, could not be allowed to
leave that bed of sickness alive. “There must be an end of her,” he
muttered through his teeth, “or she’ll drive me mad!” And then he
thought how easily he might have smothered her, as she lay there
clasping his hand, with no one but themselves in the room; and as the
thought crossed his brain his eyes nearly started from his head, the
sweat ran down his face, he clutched the money in his trousers’ pocket
till the coin left an impression on his flesh, and he gnashed his teeth
till his jaws ached with his own violence. But then, in that sick-room,
he had been afraid of her; he could not have touched her then for the
wealth of the Bank of England!—but now!
The devil sat within him, and revelled with full dominion over his
soul: there was then no feeling left akin to humanity to give him one
chance of escape; there was no glimmer of pity, no shadow of remorse,
no sparkle of love, even though of a degraded kind; no hesitation in
the will for crime, which might yet, by God’s grace, lead to its
eschewal: all there was black, foul, and deadly, ready for the devil’s
deadliest work. Murder crouched there, ready to spring, yet
afraid;—cowardly, but too thirsty after blood to heed its own fears.
Theft,—low, pilfering, pettifogging, theft; avarice, lust, and
impotent, scalding hatred. Controlled by these the black blood rushed
quick to and from his heart, filling him with sensual desires below the
passions of a brute, but denying him one feeling or one appetite for
aught that was good or even human.
Again the next morning the doctor was questioned with intense anxiety;
“Was she going?—was she drooping?—had yesterday’s horrid doubts raised
only a false alarm?” It was utterly beyond Barry’s power to make any
attempt at concealment, even of the most shallow kind. “Well, doctor,
is she dying yet?” was the brutal question he put.
“She is, if anything, rather stronger;” answered the doctor, shuddering
involuntarily at the open expression of Barry’s atrocious wish, and yet
taking his glass of wine.
“The devil she is!” muttered Barry, throwing himself into an arm-chair.
He sat there some little time, and the doctor also sat down, said
nothing, but continued sipping his wine.
“In the name of mercy, what must I do?” said Barry, speaking more to
himself than to the other.
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