Domestic fiction; Ireland -- Fiction; Land tenure -- Fiction; Landlord and tenant -- Fiction; Landowners -- Fiction
“Don’t be angry with me, Fanny,” said Lady Selina; “my regard for your
dignity arises only from my affection for you. I should be sorry to see
you lessen yourself in the eyes of those around you. You must remember
that you cannot act as another girl might, whose position was less
exalted. Miss O’Joscelyn might cry for her lost lover till she got him
back again, or got another; and no one would be the wiser, and she
would not be the worse; but you cannot do that. Rank and station are in
themselves benefits; but they require more rigid conduct, much more
control over the feelings than is necessary in a humbler position. You
should always remember, Fanny, that much is expected from those to whom
much is given.”
“And I’m to be miserable all my life because I’m not a parson’s
daughter, like Miss O’Joscelyn!”
“God forbid, Fanny! If you’d employ your time, engage your mind, and
cease to think of Lord Ballindine, you’d soon cease to be miserable.
Yes; though you might never again feel the happiness of loving, you
might still be far from miserable.”
“But I can’t cease to think of him, Selina;—I won’t even try.”
“Then, Fanny, I truly pity you.”
“No, Selina; it’s I that pity you,” said Fanny, roused to energy as
different thoughts crowded to her mind. “You, who think more of your
position as an earl’s daughter—an aristocrat, than of your nature as a
woman! Thank Heaven, I’m not a queen, to be driven to have other
feelings than those of my sex. I do love Lord Ballindine, and if I had
the power to cease to do so this moment, I’d sooner drown myself than
exercise it.”
“Then why were you weak enough to reject him?”
“Because I was a weak, wretched, foolish girl. I said it in a moment of
passion, and my uncle acted on it at once, without giving me one minute
for reflection—without allowing me one short hour to look into my own
heart, and find how I was deceiving myself in thinking that I ought to
part from him. I told Lord Cashel in the morning that I would give him
up; and before I had time to think of what I had said, he had been
here, and had been turned out of the house. Oh, Selina! it was very,
very cruel in your father to take me at my word so shortly!” And Fanny
hid her face in her handkerchief, and burst into tears.
“That’s unfair, Fanny; it couldn’t be cruel in him to do for you that
which he would have done for his own daughter. He thought, and thinks,
that Lord Ballindine would not make you happy.”
“Why should he think so?—he’d no business to think so,” sobbed Fanny
through her tears.
“Who could have a business to think for you, if not your guardian?”
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