Great Britain -- History -- Henry VIII, 1509-1547 -- Fiction
He considered these three. To refuse to sign almost inevitably involved
his ruin, and that not only, and not necessarily, in the worldly
sense; about that he sincerely believed he did not care; but it would
mean his exclusion from any concession that the King might afterwards
make. He certainly would not be allowed, under any circumstances,
to remain in the home of his profession; and if the community was
shifted he would not be allowed to go with them. As regards the second
alternative he wondered whether it was possible to shift responsibility
in that manner; as regards the third, he knew that he had very little
capability in any case of foreseeing the course that events would take.
Then he turned it all over again, and considered the arguments for
each course. His superiors were set over him by God; it was rash to
set himself against them except in matters of the plainest conscience.
Again it was cowardly to shelter himself behind this plea and so avoid
responsibility. Lastly, he was bound to judge for himself.
The arguments twisted and turned as bewilderingly as the twining
branches of his design; and behind each by which he might climb to
decision lurked a beast. He felt helpless and dazed by the storm of
conflicting motives.
As he bent over his work he prayed for light, but the question seemed
more tangled than before; the hours were creeping in; by to-morrow he
must decide.
Then the memory of the Prior’s advice to him once before came back to
his mind; this was the kind of thing, he told himself, that he must
leave to God, his own judgment was too coarse an instrument; he must
wait for a clear supernatural impulse; and as he thought of it he laid
his pencil down, dropped on to his knees, and commended it all to God,
to the Mother of God, St. Pancras, St. Peter and St. Paul. Even as he
did it, the burden lifted and he knew that he would know, when the time
came.
* * * * *
Dr. Petre came that night, but Chris saw no more of him than his back as
he went up the cloister with Dom Anthony to the Prior’s chamber. The
Prior was not at supper, and his seat was empty in the dim refectory.
Neither was he at Compline; and it was with the knowledge that
Cromwell’s man and their own Superior were together in conference, that
the monks went up the dormitory stairs that night.
But he was in his place at the chapter-mass next morning, though he
spoke to no one, and disappeared immediately afterwards.
Then at the appointed time the monks assembled in the chapter-house.
* * * * *
As Chris came in he lifted his eyes, and saw that the room was arrayed
much as it had been at the visit of Dr. Layton and Ralph. A great table,
heaped with books and papers, stood at the upper end immediately below
the dais, and a couple of secretaries were there, sharp-looking men,
seated at either end and busy with documents.
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