That evening, when Bertie was at Baronmead, she scribbled a single sentence on a sheet of paper, thrust it into an envelope and directed it to the Phoenix Club, New York. This done, she despatched a servant to the postoffice with it and sat down before the fire. "I expect it was wrong of me," she said. "But somehow I can't help feeling he ought to know. Anyway"--Dot's English was becoming lightly powdered with Americanisms, which possessed a very decided charm on her lips--"anyway, it's done, and I won't think any more about it. It's the very last wrong thing I'll do for--ever so long." Her eyes grew soft as she uttered this praiseworthy resolution. She gazed down into the fire with a little smile, and gave herself up to dreams. CHAPTER V THE SLOUGH OF DESPOND "O God, give me rest!" Painfully the words came through quivering lips, the first they had uttered for hours. Lucas Errol lay, as he had lain for nearly three months, with his face to the ceiling, his body stretched straight and rigid, ever in the same position, utterly helpless and weary unto death. Day after day he lay there, never stirring save when they made him bend his knees, an exercise upon which the doctor daily insisted, but which was agony to him. Night after night, sleepless, he waited the coming of the day. His general health varied but little, but his weakness was telling upon him. His endurance still held, but it was wearing thin. His old cheeriness was gone, though he summoned it back now and again with piteous, spasmodic effort. Hope and despair were fighting together in his soul, and at that time despair was uppermost. He had set out with a brave heart, but the goal was still far off, and he was beginning to falter. He had ceased to make any progress, and the sheer monotony of existence was wearing him out. The keen, shrewd eyes were dull and listless. At the opening of the door he did not even turn his head. And yet it was Anne who entered, Anne with the flush of exercise on her sweet face, her hands full of Russian violets. "See how busy I have been!" she said. "I am not disturbing you? You weren't asleep?" "I never sleep," he answered, and he did not look at her or the violets; he kept his eyes upon the ceiling. She came and sat beside him. "I gathered them all myself," she said. "Don't you want to smell them?" He moved his lips without replying, and she leaned down, her eyes full of the utmost compassionate tenderness and held the violets to him. He raised a hand with evident effort and fumblingly took her wrist. He pressed the wet flowers against his face. "It's a shame to bring them here, Lady Carfax," he said, letting her go. "Take them--wear them! I guess they'll be happier with you." She smiled a little. "Should I have gathered all this quantity for myself? It has taken me nearly an hour."