Truth has its own accents, however weak the words it syllables. Helen
laughed not now, but walked on with quicker steps; while the youth, the
barrier once passed, poured forth with heartfelt eloquence his tale
of love, recalling to her mind by many a slight, unnoticed trait, his
long-pledged devotion; how he had watched and worshipped her, seeking to
win favor in her eyes, and seem not all unworthy of her heart.
“It is true,” said he, “I cannot, dare not, ask in return for an
affection which should repay my own; but let me hope that what I now
speak, the devotion I pledge, is no rejected offering; that although you
care not for me, you will not crush forever one who lives but in your
smile, that you will give me time to show myself more worthy of the
prize I strive for. There is no trial I would not dare--”
“I must interrupt you, Captain Forester,” said Helen, with a voice
that all her efforts had not rendered quite steady; “it would be an
ungenerous requital for the sentiments you say you feel--”
“Say!--nay, Helen, I swear it, by every hope that now thrills within
me--”
“It would be,” resumed she, tremulously, “an ungenerous requital for
this, were I to practise any deception on you. I am sincerely, deeply
sorry to hear you speak as you have done. I had long since learned to
regard you as the friend of Lionel, almost like a brother. The pleasure
your society afforded one I am most attached to increased the feeling;
and as intimacy increased between us, I thought how happy were it if the
ambitions of life did not withdraw from home the sons whose kindness can
be as thoughtful and as tender as that of the daughters of the house.
Shall I confess it? I almost wished my brother like you; but yet all
this was not love,--nay, for I will be frank, at whatever cost,--I had
never felt this towards you, if I suspected your sentiments towards
me--”
“But, dearest Helen--”
“Hear me out. There is but one way in which the impropriety of such a
meeting as this can be obviated, chance though it be, and that is,
by perfect candor. I have told you the simple truth, not with any
undervaluing sense of the affection you proffer, still less with any
coquetry of reserve. I should be unworthy of the heart you offer me,
since I could not give my own in exchange.”
“Do you deny me all hope?” said he, in an accent almost bursting with
grief.
“I am not arrogant enough to say I shall never change; but I am honest
enough to tell you that I do not expect it.”
“Farewell, then, Helen! I do not love you less that you have taught me
to think more humbly of myself. Good-by--forever!”
“It is better it should come to this,” said Helen, faintly; and she held
out her hand towards him. “Good-by, Forester!”
He pressed one long and burning kiss upon her hand, and turned away,
while she, pushing open the door, entered the little garden. Scarcely,
however, was the door closed behind her, when the calm courage in which
she spoke forsook her, and she burst into tears.
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