In an instant, she was on her knees before the image of her God,
pouring forth the whole of her innocent and spotless soul, in the
holiest of supplications. She prayed for aid from on high to preserve
her unstained virtue; she prayed for strength from on high to resist
temptation; she prayed for pardon from on high for her sins and errors
past, for grace that she might err no more in future; she prayed that
HE, who alone could pity human suffering--for that he had suffered as
no man suffereth--would touch the hearts of her ruthless persecutors,
through his Virgin Mother; she prayed that he would console her
sorrowing parents, and him whom she scarcely dared think of, so
terrible she knew must be his anguish; lastly, she prayed for pardon
to her persecutor, and that, if she were doomed that night to perish,
her soul might be received to grace, through the intercession of the
saints, and her, the ever-blessed, the Virgin Mother Mary!
Her prayer, if in form it were erroneous, in spirit was sincere and
fervent; and, as sincere and fervent prayers _will_ ever, surely _must_
hers have found a hearing at the throne of mercy, for she arose from
her knees confirmed, if not consoled, and strengthened in her virtuous
principles, and calm by the very strength of her resolves.
Then, opening the oriel window, she stepped out into the little
balcony, or bartizan, which projected out beyond the face of the
wall--perhaps in the hope of finding some means of escape; but, alas!
if such a hope had flattered her, it was delusive; for there was no
egress from it, nor any method of descending; and it impended far over
the broad, deep moat, a hundred feet or more above its dark, clear
waters--which, she remembered to have heard men say, were fifty feet in
depth to the bottom of their rock-hewn channel. Long, long she gazed
over the lovely sunlit valley of her birth, which all lay mapped out
in the glorious glow before her eyes; the happy home among the limes,
beneath which she was born; the happier home of promise, into which she
had hoped that day to be led by him whom she loved the best; the little
chapel in the dell, among the oaks, in which she had plighted, that
very morn, her faith for ever, until death, and death alone, should
dissolve the bonds.
“And death alone,” she exclaimed, as the thoughts swelled upon her
soul, “and death alone shall dissolve them! But I must not look upon
these things--I must not think of him--or my spirit will sink into
utter weakness!” Then she paused, and, leaning over the low breastwork
of the bartizan, looked down with a steady eye into the abyss, and
crossing herself as she rose--“May God assoil my soul, if I be driven
to do this thing, as do it of a surety I will, if otherwise I may not
save my honor!”
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