"Why not if play-acting amuses us? Perhaps we are not all contented
with that amiable stranger, ourselves. Some other figure of the
present or the past may seem more desirable as a friend. Is there any
law of Nature which compels us to take one personality rather than
another? Cannot you imagine a man or a woman living years of
make-believe--play-acting always, if by play-acting they can discover a
world more desirable than the one they live in? We speak of
imagination as a rare gift. I doubt if it is so. Even little children
have their dream-worlds, and they are more remarkable than any books.
I would say that your outlook is too limited. You see one side of
life, Mr. Ord, and quarrel with those who can look tolerantly upon
both."
Gavin was honest enough to admit that it might be so.
"Yes," he said, "I grant you that the world is sometimes better for
make-believe. If we did not deceive ourselves, some of us would commit
suicide. The age is to blame for the necessity. We have not color
enough in our lives, and even our devotions are often entirely selfish.
Witness the case of a modern millionaire who is proud of being called
'a hustler.' This rogue tells his friends that he has no time for
ordinary social intercourse. My answer is that he ought to be hanged
out of hand. Such a fellow never comes face to face with himself once
in twenty years. Men envy him and yet despise him. Take the meanest
hero of mediæval fiction and place him side by side with a Gould or a
Vanderbilt. What a very monarch he becomes! Total up the riches of a
trust and remember Mozart died of starvation. Vulgarity
everywhere--none of us is free from it. Our very ambitions are
advertised."
"And we have not even the courage to hide ourselves in nunneries."
"They would come here with cameras and photograph our habits. No, we
must accept the position frankly and make the best of it. That carries
me round the circle. By getting up with the sun we see something of
ourselves sometimes. Our work is not then the whole occupation of the
day."
"But yours, surely, is not work you despise, Mr. Ord?"
"So little that I fear it on that very account. Just imagine how this
house is going to make a captive of me. I shall know every stone of it
before a month has passed. I will tell you then all its truths and all
its fables. The dead will become my intimate friends. I shall
reconstruct from the beginning. I must do it, for how shall I dare to
touch the hallowed walls unless something of the builder's secret is
known to me. In six months' time I will show the harvest of dreams.
In six months' time----"
"In six months' time! What an age to wait! I may not be in England
then."
"You will return to be my critic."
"I may never return."
"Never return! my dear lady, you could not possibly desert Melbourne
Hall. The very stones would cry out upon you."
"Oh," she said, looking straight into his face; "my husband may not
like England, you know."
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