Transatlantic voyages -- Fiction; Venice (Italy) -- Fiction; Voyages and travels -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
“What would you--what must I--” Lydia began again.
“No, Lydia,” interrupted her aunt. “I won't tell you a thing. I might
have advised you when you first came; but now, I--Well, I think I've
lived too long in Europe to be of use in such a case, and I won't have
anything to do with it. I won't tell you how to meet him, or what to
say; but oh, child,”--here the woman's love of loving triumphed in her
breast,--“I wish I was in your place! Go!”
Lydia slowly rose, breathless.
“Lydia!” cried her aunt. “Look at me!” Lydia turned her head. “Are you
going to be hard with him?”
“I don't know what he's coming for,” said Lydia dishonestly.
“But if he's coming for what you hope?”
“I don't hope for anything.”
“But you did. Don't be severe. You're terrible when you're severe.”
“I will be just.”
“Oh, no, you mustn't, my dear. It won't do at all to be _just_ with men,
poor fellows. Kiss me, Lydia!” She pulled her down, and kissed her. When
the girl had got as far as the door, “Lydia, Lydia!” she called after
her. Lydia turned. “Do you realize what dress you've got on?” Lydia
looked down at her robe; it was the blue flannel yachting-suit of the
Aroostook, which she had put on for convenience in taking care of
her aunt. “Isn't it too ridiculous?” Mrs. Erwin meant to praise the
coincidence, not to blame the dress. Lydia smiled faintly for answer,
and the next moment she stood at the parlor door.
Staniford, at her entrance, turned from looking out of the window and
saw her as in his dream, with her hand behind her, pushing the door to;
but the face with which she looked at him was not like the dead, sad
face of his dream. It was thrillingly alive, and all passions were blent
in it,--love, doubt, reproach, indignation; the tears stood in her eyes,
but a fire burnt through the tears. With his first headlong impulse
to console, explain, deplore, came a thought that struck him silent at
sight of her. He remembered, as he had not till then remembered, in
all his wild longing and fearing, that there had not yet been anything
explicit between them; that there was no engagement; and that he had
upon the face of things, at least, no right to offer her more than some
formal expression of regret for not having been able to keep his promise
to come sooner. While this stupefying thought gradually filled his whole
sense to the exclusion of all else, he stood looking at her with a dumb
and helpless appeal, utterly stunned and wretched. He felt the life die
out of his face and leave it blank, and when at last she spoke, he
knew that it was in pity of him, or contempt of him. “Mrs. Erwin is not
well,” she said, “and she wished me--”
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