The lady's mile : $b a novelBraddon, M. E. (Mary Elizabeth)
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The lady's mile : $b a novel
Braddon, M. E. (Mary Elizabeth)
English fiction -- 19th century
"Secret!" cried Flo, bitterly; "a secret that is known to all the
country side. No, Cecil; your advice is very good, I dare say; but it
is advice that I can never act upon. I have made a mistake, but I made
it with my eyes open; and I will never tell my father how miserably
my folly has come home to me. He gave his consent to my marriage with
such reluctance; he knew that I was selling myself for fine clothes
and a splendid establishment. But I tried to deceive him--I tried to
deceive myself. Modern London is a kind of Maelstrom, Cecil, and my
poor foolish head was giddy with all that confusion of carriages and
horses, and bric-à-brac and jewelry. Every body is so rich nowadays,
and one is stifled with the wealth of other people. I had begun to
think that life was intolerable without a million of money, some time
before I met Mr. Lobyer. He was the first millionaire who crossed my
path, and I accepted him blindly. But I thought that he asked me to be
his wife because he loved me, Cecil--honestly, after his own unromantic
fashion--and I meant to do my duty to him; I did indeed, Cecil."
"I believe it, darling; and you may still do your duty," answered
Cecil, bending tenderly over the slight figure. Mrs. Lobyer had slipped
from the low chair to the ground, and was half-sitting, half-kneeling,
at her friend's feet.
"What, with a Miss de Raymond in the background? Never, Cecil! Besides,
I had long given over that idea of doing my duty. Within a week of my
marriage I discovered how mistaken I had been in thinking Mr. Lobyer
cared for me. It was for his own glorification, the gratification of
his own vanity that he married me; and I am not so much to him as
his horses or his dogs, for he takes some pleasure in their society.
He swore at me before our honeymoon was over, because I ventured to
remonstrate with him for his brutality to a waiter who had made
some mistake about the arrangements of the dinner. From that time
all thought of doing my duty honestly and conscientiously, as I had
meant to do it, was over. Our marriage was reduced to the level of a
bargain, and I resolved to perform my part of the bargain as fairly
as I could. So I dress to the best of my ability, and I receive my
husband's friends, and am civil even to those Manchester people; and
I fill up invitation-cards, and give the housekeeper her orders, and
discuss the arrangements of the house--who is to have the blue-room,
and who is to have the chintz-room, and who we may venture to put
upon the second-floor, and so on. With regard to Sir Nugent Evershed,
I will frankly confess that he is an unutterable relief to me after
Manchester; and if I flirt with him a little now and then, I consider
myself quite at liberty to do so. To-night my nerves were irritated
by the rencontre of the afternoon, and I dare say I behaved very
foolishly. I wanted to demonstrate my defiance of my husband. I wished
to show these people--who, no doubt, know all about Miss de Raymond--I
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