India -- History -- British occupation, 1765-1947 -- Fiction; Love stories
She sat down with a beating heart and leaned back with closed eyes. A
heavy sense of foreboding oppressed her. She was very tired, but yet she
knew that sleep was far away. Just as once she had felt a dread that was
physical on behalf of Ralph Dacre, so now she felt weighed down by
suspense and loneliness. Only now it was a thousand times magnified, for
this man was her world. She tried to picture to herself what it would
have meant to her had that shot in the jungle slain him instead of
Captain Ermsted. But the bare thought was beyond endurance. Once she
could have borne it, but not now--not now! Once she could have denied
her love and fared forth alone into the desert. But he had captured her,
and now she was irrevocably his. Her spirit pined almost unconsciously
whenever he was absent from her. Her body knew no rest without him. From
the moment of his leaving her, she was ever secretly on fire for his
return.
Had they been in England she knew that it would have been otherwise. In
a calm and temperate atmosphere she could have attained a serene,
unruffled happiness. But India, fevered and pitiless, held her in
scorching grip. She dwelt as it were on the edge of a roaring furnace
that consumed some victims every day. Her life was strung up to a pitch
that frightened her. The very intensity of the love that Everard Monck
had practically forced into being within her was almost more than she
could bear. It hurt her like the searing of a flame, and yet in the hurt
there was rapture. For the icy blast of the desert could never reach her
now. Unless--unless--ah, was there not a flaming sword still threatening
her wherever she pitched her camp? Surround herself as she would with
the magic essences of love, did not the vengeance await her--even
now--even now? Could she ever count herself safe so long as she remained
in this land of treachery and terrible vengeance? Could there ever be
any peace so near to the burning fiery furnace?
Slowly the night wore on. The air blew in cool and pure with a soft
whispering of spring and the brief splendour of the rose-time. The howl
of a prowling jackal came now and then to her ears, making her shiver
with the memory of Monck's words. Away in the jungle the owls were
calling upon notes that sounded like weird cries for help.
Once or twice she heard a shuffling movement outside the door and knew
that Peter was still on guard. She wondered if he ever slept. She
wondered if Tommy had returned. He often dropped into the Club on his
way back, and sometimes stayed late. Then, realizing how late it was,
she came to the conclusion that she must have dozed in her chair.
She got up with a sense of being weighted in every limb, and began to
undress. Everard would be vexed if he returned and found her still up.
Not that she expected him to return for a long time. His absence lasted
sometimes till the night was nearly over.
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