India -- History -- British occupation, 1765-1947 -- Fiction; Love stories
She heard the pain in his voice, but for the first time she passed it
by unheeded. "Yes, tell me!" she said. "I must know."
He was silent for a little, as if mustering his forces. Then, his hands
tight upon hers, he spoke. "In the first place, you are Dacre's widow,
and not--my wife."
She quivered in his hold. "And then?" she whispered.
"And then," he said, "our baby is dead, so you are free from
all--obligations."
Her hands clenched hard upon his. "Is that all?"
"No." With sudden passion he answered her. "There are two more reasons
why I should go. One is--that I have made your life a hell on earth. You
have said it, and I know it to be true. Ah, you had better let me
go--and go quickly. For your own sake--you had better!"
But she ignored the warning, holding him almost fiercely. "And the last
reason?" she said.
He was silent for a few seconds, and in his silence there was something
of an electric quality, something that pierced and scorched yet
strangely drew her. "Someone else can tell you that," he said at length.
"It isn't that I am a broken man. I know that wouldn't affect you one
way or another. It is that I have done a thing that you would hate--yet
that I would do again to-morrow if the need arose. You can ask Ralston
what it is! Say I told you to! He knows."
"But I ask you," she said, and still her hands gripped his. "Everard,
why don't you tell me? Are you--afraid to tell me?"
"No," he said.
"Then answer me!" she said, her breathing sharp and uneven. "Tell me the
truth! Make me understand you--once and for all!"
"You have always understood me," he said.
"No--no!" she protested.
"Well, nearly always," he amended. "As long as you have known my
love--you have known me. My love for you is myself--the immortal part.
The rest--doesn't count."
"Ah!" she said, and suddenly the very soul of her rose up and spoke.
"Then you needn't tell me any more, dear love--dear love. I don't need
to hear it. It doesn't matter. It can't make any difference. Nothing
ever can again, for, as you say, nothing else counts. Go if you
must,--but if you do--I shall follow you--I shall follow you--to the
world's end."
"Stella!" he said.
"I mean it," she told him, and her voice throbbed with a fiery force
that was deeper than passion, stronger than aught human. "You are mine
and I am yours. God knows, dear,--God knows that is all that matters
now. I didn't understand before. I do now, I think--suffering has taught
me--many things. Perhaps it is--His Angel."
"The Angel with the Flaming Sword," he said, under his breath.
"But the Sword is turned away," she said. "The way is open."
He got to his feet abruptly. "Wait!" he said. "Before you say
that--wait!"
He freed himself from her hold gently but very decidedly. She knew that
for a second he stood close above her with arms outflung before he
turned away. Then there came the rasp of a match, a sudden flare in the
darkness. She looked to see his face--and uttered a cry.
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