India -- History -- British occupation, 1765-1947 -- Fiction; Love stories
"It gets simpler as one goes on, dear," Mrs. Ralston assured her gently.
"Not easy, oh no, not easy. We were never meant to make an easy-chair of
circumstance however favourable. But if we only press on, it does get
simpler, and the way opens out before us as we go. I have learnt that at
least from life." She paused a moment, then bent suddenly down and spoke
into Stella's ear. "May I tell you something about myself--something I
have never before breathed to any one--except to God?"
Stella turned instantly. "Yes, tell me!" she murmured back, clasping
closely the thin hand that had so tenderly stroked her own.
Mrs. Ralston hesitated a second as one who pauses before making a
supreme effort. Then under her breath she spoke again. "Perhaps it will
not interest you much. I don't know. It is only this. Like you, I
wanted--I hoped for--a child. And--I married without loving--just for
that. Stella, my sin was punished. The baby came--and went--and there
can never be another. I thought my heart was broken at the time. Oh, it
was bitter--bitter. Even now--sometimes--" She stopped herself. "But no,
I needn't trouble you with that. I only want to tell you that very
beautiful flowers bloom sometimes out of ashes. And it has been so with
me. My rose of love was slow in growing, but it blossoms now, and I am
training it over all the blank spaces. And it grew out of a barren soil,
dear, out of a barren soil."
Stella's arms were close about her as she finished. "Oh, thank you," she
whispered tremulously, "thank you for telling me that."
But though she was deeply stirred, no further confidence could she bring
herself to utter. She had found a friend--a close, staunch friend who
would never fail her; but not even to her could she show the blackness
of the gulf into which she had been hurled. Even now there were times
when she seemed to be still falling, falling, and always, waking or
sleeping, the nightmare horror of it clung cold about her soul.
CHAPTER III
THE BARREN SOIL
No one could look askance at poor Ralph Dacre's young widow. Lady
Harriet Mansfield graciously hinted as much when she paid her state call
within a week of her arrival. Also, she desired to ascertain Stella's
plans for the future, and when she heard that she intended to return to
Kurrumpore with Mrs. Ralston she received the news with a species of
condescending approval that seemed to indicate that Stella's days of
probation were past. With the exercise of great care and circumspection
she might even ultimately be admitted to the fortunate circle which
sunned itself in the light of Lady Harriet's patronage.
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