Harvard University -- Fiction; Love stories; Plantations -- Virginia -- Fiction; Youth -- Fiction
“Now,” he added, pale and half fearful, “you may forgive me――if you
can.”
For many moments Margaret sat motionless, her hands still loosely
clasped, her face averted. John waited anxiously, breathing hard,
possessed with an almost fierce exultation for that he had proclaimed
himself her lover and that, whatever happened, no longer could she
consider him as merely her brother’s friend, an acquaintance to be
smiled upon politely and dismissed from her thoughts. Whether she
sent him away or bade him remain, he was her lover, a factor in her
life. Whether she ever cared for him or not, at least she could never
forget him; as long as she lived the mention of his name must summon
recollection. All this would be but poor consolation for losing her,
but now, as he waited for her to speak, he found a fierce comfort in
the knowledge that already it was beyond her power to put him entirely
from her life.
When at length she turned her face to him it was paler than his own and
the little smile that quivered about the lips was one of pain. Her eyes
met his bravely, infinitely tender. John read his answer and his heart
sank; but he gave back her smile.
“I’m so sorry,” she whispered.
John nodded and looked away. He wanted to say something, but the right
words would not come; he could only smile. It came to him with a shock
that he had allowed himself to hope too much; that, despite pretense
of reckoning with possible disappointment, he had not, in reality,
considered it. The sunlit world suddenly looked sickeningly blank.
Perhaps Margaret read something of all this in his expression. When she
spoke again her voice held pain and regret.
“There’s so much I’d like to say,” she murmured. “But――I don’t know
how. I wish――I want you to believe that I am sorry, more sorry than I
can tell you. And I thank you very, very much for the honour, for it is
an honour that a woman may be proud of, Mr. North. Oh, tell me this,
please: have I been to blame?”
“To blame! You!”
“I mean have I done anything, said anything to make you think――that I
might――care for you?”
“Great heavens, no!” John protested. “It has been all my fault. But,
no, not a fault; I won’t call it that. It would have been a fault not
to have loved you. I――I’ve made a mistake in telling you, that is all,
Miss Ryerson. Please don’t think of it any more; don’t let it trouble
you. It――it’ll be all right.”
“Will it?” she asked wistfully. “I hope so, oh, I do hope so! I
never thought――if I had suspected for a moment, I would have done
something――gone away――――”
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