It was years before he risked detection by a visit to his old city to
ascertain regarding them, for of course he dared not write. Time was
generous and changed him much, however, in appearance, so finally he
traversed the continent and furtively, fearfully, entered his old
haunts. He did not stay long; there was no need. His wife was dead; he
found her humble grave in an old cemetery. The boy had been entirely
lost sight of; he had drifted away and might be dead for all that
anybody knew or apparently cared. We poor worldlings might perchance be
more sympathetic, more solicitous one of the other, if we had more time.
But self-interest in the grim old world demands and receives the initial
consideration of self. Shaughnessy turned back with a heart none the
lighter because of the fruitlessness of his quest; back to the old
search in dark places for pelf and power. There was nothing else left,
and, as his ideals had never been high, his course suited him and
satisfied his ambition.
The boss rose, swaying, from his chair; a strange weakness was upon him.
He made his way toward the spot where his unconscious son lay prone on
the floor, and he tottered like an old man. He stood looking down upon
the boy, and for his most monstrous sin of all there was grim reprisal
visible in his eyes. The boy was as he had made him--as he himself had
been--a drunkard. Of brilliant mental endowment, as the father knew to
his cost, the son's career was clouded by this bitter heritage; would be
clouded to the end, for he lacked his father's iron will. And the agency
through which the boss' black course had been menaced; that menaced it
still; the son against the sire, unknowing and till now unknown! What a
hell-born irony it was, matter for mirth of gibbering fiends. Truly, at
last Shaughnessy drank the bitter lees.
He stood there, swaying slightly, his gaunt face bloodless, his eyes
horrible. Mechanically he pulled out his watch, starting violently. Why,
it could be no more than five minutes since the struggle. Five
minutes--and in them Shaughnessy had lived long and bitter years! And
now--
"_For God's sake! For--God's--sake!_"
The old, old prayer of agony, of deadly fear, wrung at the last from
lips which perhaps had long ceased to frame that Awful Name except in
blasphemy; the cry of the ages; the wail of the wicked as it is the hope
of the blessed; the cry of despair which rends the throat of the pariah
when face to face with Death.
What was it? Ah! Shaughnessy knew; while his face went gray, while he
gasped for breath, while his hands sought and pressed convulsively his
breast, through which throbbed swift, keen stabs of exquisite pain. The
mists swam before his staring eyes as he reeled blindly, now with
outstretched hands, toward the door of his den. It was the ancient enemy
returned--and this time not to be denied.
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