"It might be well," said Romney, "But I don’t think I shall be able to
clear to-morrow. Your country and your countrymen have taught me how to
wait, Bamban.... I recall Tushi-kow when I was very impatient and the
delightful Fai Ming would not let us even talk about the matter of our
journey for nearly as many days as we have waited here in Nadiram—"
"Might it not be well for the messenger’s servant to travel on to Wampli
alone if the interval of waiting is still to be extended, in order to
ascertain the orders there, or to be there if orders come?"
"Would orders be delivered to the messenger’s servant?" Romney asked.
"In case the messenger is unavoidably detained."
There was no longer any doubt in the American’s mind that Minglapo had
given him more than a servant.
"I may think more about that," said he.
But he didn’t. He thought about the woman. His faith was shaken now,
and his pride was harshly wounded. The devotion he had come to know was
a madness and a martyrdom. Compared to it, all the things that men do
with their boundaries, ambitions, conspiracies, and sundry national
businesses, belonged to a lower dimension of life. He saw all his
activities of the past as little and lesser movements. He could not
have lived through them had he known how futile they were, how empty his
heart was.
The great burden now was this meeting of the old world in her heart—her
sending him away because they were man and woman alone. Man and woman,
as he had thought, in the strangest and deepest moments of their lives.
He loved the quest spirit in her eyes; he loved her capacity to
sacrifice; he loved her mighty will for him to go and the cry of her
most human heart for him to stay in the fright from the hyenas. He
loved her now with this taint of the old upon her—that was the torturing
truth. But he was disappointed.
He had been so far from the truck of convention, that he had neglected
to speak of this point first. Had he spoken of it, he would have
expected her to deny any cause for his changing from the Consulate to
the Rest House in so far as a convention was concerned.... He felt
himself in the old madness. These were the days of Hankow again, with
all the added forces and energies of his life making hell for him. He
was like an engine thrashing itself to pieces with its own power,
because she had cut herself from him. He saw ahead a redder rending
than he had known before, and which had brought him close to death.
He felt at rage with the world; capable even of telling Anna Erivan how
vindictive was this hurt for a man who would die for her. But Romney
unfrequently spoke in his rage. It came very seldom, and he had made it
a law to laugh and speak of other things until it passed.
"Bamban," he said, "you Chinese men do not consider a woman."
"Ah, yes," said the wise little man.
"You do not consider the interests of the heart of man or woman
comparable to the interests of one’s country or business—"
"We keep them apart."
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